Hi all, So the anonymity has helped me make the decision after 4 years 9 months of 'trying' to conceive that I'm actually not ok about it. I'm worried the laproscopy showed I have a bit of endometriosis. I'm worried they had to put me out because they couldn't get the tube in because my cervix are damaged.
I'm worried that I'm turning 38 soon and IVF is preferable before 39. The doctors appointments take forever to come through. I'm waiting on a consultants appointment to come through to put me though the 6 months hormone boost. Then if that doesn't work, they'll put me forward to do the paperwork for IVF.
The injections scare me, the 20% IVF success rate for my age scares me. I have the most wonderful husband, he would make an amazing father and I feel I've let him down. Like it's my fault.
I had a little break down last year and I'm on citalopam (low dose) but I'm scared if I come off it to do the hormone and IVF treatment I'll fall apart. If you knew me, you wouldn't know to look at me, I'm always the one who's totally fine and loving life. But this part of my life has become a very heavy burden to carry.