Sorry in advance for my post but I need to air it somewhere.... 3 of my mates (2 of them who are close friends) have all had their babies one was born yesterday and the other two today!!
It was the anniversary of my nans death yesterday who was my rock my world my everything and was always the one by my side was taken far to early 59 years old!!! She was a mum to me and going through this process without her is killing me, so as you can imagine while also injecting and trying to keep myself positive has finally just hit me and I feel so angry like you all that i can't just be one of the normal people who can conceive and bring a baby into the world!
I keep questioning myself all the time .... What have I done so wrong that I am struggling to have the one thing in the world that I've wanted all my life!!
Having to be so happy for people bringing there little Ones into the world and right now it proving quite difficult as all I'm feeling is jealousy and upset that it's not me.
Don't get me wrong I'm so happy for them I really am I just think my hormones are all over the place right now and it's been quite a bit of news these last two days to take in.
Anyway sorry for the rant I'm going to try and get some sleep now and tomorrow's a new day!!
I hope you are all well and blowing lots of baby dust all your ways 💝