First of all, thank you to all the lovely ladies who responded to my scan pic and news yesterday about the 12 week scan. Im sorry I haven't yet had a chance to respond to all.
Now I'm worried that I have jinxed myself by posting yesterday. This morning when I went to the loo I saw blood in the toilet and quite a bit when I wiped. Anxiously waiting until the EPU opens at 9 am and absolutely fearing the worst. And everything seemed great yesterday too...
Thanks everyone for your lovely messages, I really appreciate them. EPU were able to see me pretty quickly this morning thankfully. They did an internal ultrasound which showed the baby still alive and wriggling about which was a relief. But they aren't sure the cause of the bleeding which is a worry. There is a bruise where the placenta has attached and they are hopeful it is just bleeding caused by that - by the placenta burrowing in. Apparently that is quite common and can be as heavy as a light period. But they also told us we should cancel a holiday we had planned (due to leave tomorrow) just in case that isn't what it is and the problem gets worse. So I'm not feeling very reassured. And I know it sounds crazy, and if anyone else said this I would tell them they were being ridiculous, but I can't help feeling that I did jinx this pregnancy by finally allowing myself last night to believe that everything would be okay, by promising myself I would be less anxious and by getting excited. As I said, I know that makes no sense. But I just can't help feeling this is somehow my fault and that now things are going to end badly, after I've become so attached to that wriggling baby. X