Haven't posted for a while- had our third go at IVF which was our second frozen cycle and had a BFP but have just had the scan and I've miscarried. Absolutely devastated! I had a bleed (twice) the week of the bfp and contacted the clinic straight away but they said there was nothing they could do and to keep going with the medication and to wait until the scan date- my scan was done at 9weeks due to me being away for a couple of weeks so they thought it better to make it later other than earlier. The thing is the bleed happened way before I went away and I really think a blood test should have been taken or something at the time as I feel I've been clinging onto false hope and taken medication for no reason. I am so sad about it all-literally found out about and hour and a half ago so very teary and am on my own as the husband had to go back to work. I just don't know what to do with myself- I didn't tell many people as I was afraid it would end like this- I talked myself into not putting it on here when I had a bfp as I thought it may jinx it-stupid I know! I'm so fed up of the constant disappointment, just feel as though I'm constantly letting people down- my Mum was with her friends and me and they were all going on about their grandchildren and the guilt I felt as my Mum didn't have that-just awful. I also teach so am surrounded by babies and children so I feel kind of stuck. I've cancelled all my classes for today as I can't face it. Sorry about the massive out pouring of stuff just feel I need to kind of vent at the moment.
Thanks for reading xx