Anxiety is off the chart!! 😱

Test day is tomorrow and I'm feeling so anxious!!! I've started to get period type pains as a heavy feeling as if I'm about to come on. Today would be Day 1 of a new cycle but I've been told I won't be able to have a period due to the meds. I'm trying to ignore the pains and general sick feeling of failure that keep bubbling up.

We are going to do a HPT tomorrow.

This is our 3rd of IVF and our only FET we got from round 3. I just don't know how many more times we can keep going through this, we are paying privately so it's killing us!! Let alone the emotional and physical toll it takes. I'm trying to be strong and upbeat but my anxiety is off the chart!!

I started researching clinics aboard and donor eggs last night as I'm starting to panic about the what if and what's next. I feel like I know it hasn't worked.

Thinking of all you ladies going through such turmoil, 😘 Xxx

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  • Aw Hannah, I haven't been at your stage yet but I already know I will be the same.

    All I can say is that I've read so many ladies on here saying the same and they got their BFP. It's not over until it's over lovely keep your chin up 😘.

  • I have been in your place so many times. We are on number 5 transfer. It is so hard. You think after the first failure it would get easier to cope with but it is the complete opposite. I completely understand how you are feeling. Any pains or cramps you have are a constant worry as none of us know if its normal or if af is going to show her ugly face. Try and take it easy today. Go out for a walk, go to the cinema or out for a meal, anything that will help take your mind off things. Just to feel like a normal person for once. I dont know about you but thats what i find the hardest feeling like a normal person that doesnt have to worry about concieving etc. I really hope you get through today and you get your bfp tomorrow. Im keeping everything crossed for you. Im here is you want a chat on message at all. Take care xx

  • Hi Hannah I'm afraid I don't have any advice as I'm the same myself, my test date is Monday and it feels like it's going to be the longest weekend ever when they usually zip by 😳

    Just wanted to say you're not alone, the 2ww is tortuous isn't it. Although lots of ladies say that's only the start so I guess it never ends does it 😩 I think it causes some kind of personality transplant in many of us, not surprising considering how tough it is.

    Loads of luck to you for tomorrow, really hope it's your time xx

  • Oh Hannah - bless you! You've done incredibly well not to test earlier, I think that's amazing. I'm not surprised you're anxious and excited all in one! After so many attempts I think it has to be your turn, I will keep everything crossed for you :) Come on BFP!!! x x x

  • Fingest crossed that you get a BFP tomorrow. The 2ww and test day doesn't seem to get easier. Anxiety is normal at this stage. Good luck.

  • Just wanted to wish you luck for tomorrow!!x

  • Awww Hannah143 i know the feeling before test day. You think of all the negative things to prepare your mind for the worst outcome. I did exactly the same and I am sure most women here will agree. I did not sleep a wink as I was so anxious. Please try and think positive and know that we all have everything crossed for you. Baby dust to you. Xxx

  • Good luck X

  • Thanks for your kind messages of support, we got another negative πŸ’”πŸ˜’. thats 2 failed iUI, 3 failed IVf and 1 failed FET. its not looking good, weve agreed that we will spend some time researching alternative clinics, and look at potentially using donor eggs. We cant keep trying the same thing and expect a different outcome. We are heartbroken, there are not words to really explain how I feel.

    I treated myself to some new Sweaty Beatty running gear yesterday so going to test that out this morning. Try to clear the head

    Xx

  • So sorry to hear your sad news hannah. It gets harder every time it happens. We have had 4 failures 2 icsi's and 3 fet. This is our 3rd fet and im keeping everything crossed but im nervous. You have done a good thing researching alternative clinics etc. Spoiling yourself is a good idea to. Make sure you put yourself first and look after yourself. Take care of yourself. If you need a further chat im here for you xx

  • Thank you sweetie, I've had a very tough week but have started creating a spreadsheet of the top 5 London clinics and 2 in Spain to compare prices, success rates and policies and procedures. I also had a pre-consultation chat with a couple of clinics too, to get their advice. Fact finding helps me feel a little more in control.

    Good luck with your FET, I have everything crossed for you xxx

  • Oh Hannah I'm so sorry, you've been through so much, life is so cruel sometimes.

    Exercise is a great way to try and make yourself feel brighter, that's really admirable of you at a very tough time.

    Keep on treating yourself you deserve it, and I hope you get your happy ending very soon xxx

  • Thank you xx

  • Sorry to hear your news!! Look after yourselves!!x

  • Thank you xx

  • Hannah I'm really sorry to read this. It is so unfair. Hope the run helped a little. Take care, stay strong x x x

  • Thank you xx

  • Aw so sorry for your news. I am about to start my 3rd cycle and last go with my own eggs before we also move onto DE if it fails x

    p.s Love sweaty betty stuff x

  • Good luck Button, I hope this is your time, I have everything crossed for you. 😘😘 xx

  • Oh so sorry to hear your news Honey ... Please try to look after yourself and I really hope you have better result with your next cycle xxx