Hello Ladies, its been a good long while since I posted so I'll fill in some history.
We did round 1 of ICSI this time last year and although I was classed as pregnant I was told to expect an early miscarriage as my HcG was so low. The miscarriage came the next week.
We started round 2, a frozen cycle, in October and got my second BFP November 28th. Words cannot describe how happy I felt ( I'm not one to cry usually but all I did was cry with happiness). We had a scan on xmas eve and saw the heartbeat and were signed out of the ivf clinic. We told our family over xmas and just before new year I had my first scare. But all turned out to be okay until a few weeks later and on 19th January I woke up and told a friend at work 'I don't feel pregnant anymore.' I started bleeding that day and found out on 22nd January there was no heartbeat.
I've spent the last few months trying to understand how to function again as a normal human being. I have good days and bad and I know it sounds so dramatic but unless you've been through I don't think you can truly understand.
We have a meeting with the clinic on Thursday afternoon to discuss starting treatment again. A part of me is excited but more than anything I'm terrified.
I've had BFP's twice, I surely can't be lucky enough 3 times in a row to get another BFP. We go on holiday at the end of the month to celebrate my 30th and then I hope to start treatment either towards the end of my holiday or the day I come back if my timings are correct.
Has anyone had the same or similar experience and it was a case of third time lucky? Searching for hope wherever I can.