And now im scared...

[pritsko2011]

It was strange past few days... On Wednesday evening i couldn't calm down and my heart was beating so fast i couldn't fall asleep. I caved in on Thursday morning ( 5dp5dt) and did a test, it was negative.

Whole morning i was really upset but then i realised that in a way its good to be prepared for the worst as that way i dont put my hopes up too much like it was 2previous times.

Now im even scared my otd on Thursday as i really want it to be positive.

Also sad news from Tamtam this morning reminded me about my loss 1 year ago and how cruel nature is.

Im not religious person but this time im praying for me and all of you girls here! That he gives us strength to go through this journey whatever outcome is!

Xxxx

[Petree86]

Hey hun, I hope you're okay. Why do you think your heart was beating so fast? Are you feeling really worried. I know how the waiting can be. I'm currently on my 2ww and I can't think about anything else. I'm looking at pics of embryos to try and figure out what mine should be looking like now.

I am a Christian and I won't lie, this whole process including the 4 years trying to conceive has been a real test of faith for me and I am praying for myself and all of us xx

[pritsko2011 in reply to Petree86]

Thank you for your reply X

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to pritsko2011]

Hi pritsko2011. Have been thinking about you. Sounds like you might just have had a bit of a panic attack! Quite understandable, as this IVF game is never easy to go through. Sadly, some of us do have "anniversaries" to cope with too, but in time they do get better to deal with - as I well know. Keeping everything crossed for you for Thursday. Diane

[pritsko2011 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thank you Diane!

Immuch calmer and relaxed now. Im just letting life be. Enjoying what i have)))