Feeling pretty empty right now.. After a hazy, not-very-clear scan at the fertility clinic, I was sent over to the early pregnancy clinic to wait an hour and a half to be told it is another miscarriage. By the looks of it, it stopped developing only about 4-5 days ago and there was no pulse and at 7wks3days that's the end.
Feeling very sad and especially for my hubby who has no children of his own. It was so hard for him being with me today (he wasn't there for my last miscarriage scan last time I had IVF) because of course he didn't understand the grey and white blobs on the ultrasound image.
I got home and ordered a pizza and almost ate the whole thing. Then I dove into a packet of wine gums. Out of my system now. Back to the healthy eating tomorrow as I want to drop some weight now. I haven't had any bleeding yet but they've told me it could happen any time in the next few weeks. I have pain killers on hand and this time I'm letting it pass naturally.
We're not having any more IVF now I don't think. We have one embryo on ice but it isn't very good quality so probably no point in having a FET. Also, at 39 the odds are so low that we'll actually end up with a successful outcome. At least we tried. I feel like we did everything we possibly could so I have no regrets about going through the process.
Thanks to you all for your words of support and comfort while I was stressing (turns out I was right to be stressed!). Wishing you all baby dust and happiness and acceptance if it doesn't work out for you XXX