I have been really struggling this past couple of weeks. I find myself looking at pregnant women and people pushing prams thinking thats never going to be me. I don't know how to get myself out of this rut. I really don't want to go back to needing anti depressants. I just feel that any spare minute i have my mind rushes back to it. Its just so hard to try and be postive about the whole situation or even try and tell myself that it might never happen.