Only a few days since our last negative but since it was our last nhs go, everything hurts so much more and no one seems to understand that we may never get our miracle baby now, family have sent there politely oh I'm sorry to hear you got another negative...... and just expect us to move on like it's just another blip 😭.
I don't know if we will ever be able to afford to go private like I want to and that really scares me 😢.
We were hoping for a bit of help from my parents but I have a older brother in his 40's who is a complete idiot, he's messed up again and my parents have to bail him out with money again....... my mam informed me that she had told him that my dad retires in April and there will be no more bail outs then ....... this broke my heart 😭...... I know we are grown ups and shouldn't relay on parents ect ect ect so this also makes me feel selfish , we never expected to be given money we just hoped for a loan .
I'm sorry for this blubbering rant I'm just such a mess ☹ I just want someone to hug me and make it all better .