After one fail and one medical miscarriage I am third time lucky and I am coming up to 19 weeks pregnant. But I can't seem to relax the pressure of it being an egg donation IVF pregnancy and my second attempt ending in miscarriage is making me paranoid, anxious and scared that something is going to go wrong. Haunted by the thought I could lose my baby again even though I'm further along this time. The thought that if anything went wrong I would have to start this emotional journey all over again. I feel really selfish writing this when there are those who still haven't had there BFP. I am so sorry.
I keep asking my husband do you think the baby is ok, I'm reading into every little thing, twinges and aches everything just makes me question if everything is ok. I am so happy to be pregnant I am made up but part of me is so scared. I've had several scans which show a strong heart beat and baby, but in between waiting for those scans I can't help asking myself is he/she ok in there still growing still being strong for me. I know I am feeling like this because I want him/her so bad and it has been a long emotional journey to get here I just felt like I needed to get my feelings out there.
Hope you are all ok X X