First of all congrats to those who have recently got their bfp you are helping the rest of us have hope in darker times.
I'm sorry ladies about this but I need to let my feelings out somewhere. Just visited my grandparents where I was told my cousin who got married last year is expecting a child this October. Then there was talk about my husbands brother becoming a dad next month. Last week my husbands friend girlfriend is expecting their second this year. It seems the world and his wife can have babies and we are the only couple that can't. I feel helpless saddened and generally broken by it. 💔
To top it off we have no explanation for the nearly 5 years of suffering infertility. That's the part that's the hardest to deal with.
I've got issues that I saw a gynae over last week who told me nothing I didn't expect to hear. Pill or coil. As I want a baby none of those are options. He did say he would in his letter recommend a referral to an NHS clinic. He thinks I've got problems with ovulating which are causing my symptoms. Thinks I may need clomid.Of course I haven't received this letter yet. Anything with the NHS takes ages and I'm on tender hooks waiting. Receptionist told me it can take weeks to arrive and now I'm worried it won't arrive by the time I have my GPs appointment. Which is the 5th may.Got full count blood test Monday as I've anaemia to make sure the iron pills prescription is working.
I'm ok when I'm at college and when I'm volunteering at a school near by me as I want to become a teaching assistant. I really enjoy working there and find it very rewarding. Some ways girls I should never have bothered with the Gynae appointment I knew what he would say. All its done is open Jack in the box all the feelings are coming back to haunt me.
I have thought of doing some private blood tests to see if I can find out what is going on. Has or can anyone recommend some investigations that I should look into?
It's awful for those around me they don't know what to do or say to me. All they want is for to be ok. And then not only do I have to deal with my pain but have to deal with their pain of not being able to stop my pain. They don't understand I can't just snap out of it I wish it was that easy .I worry I'll never have a child with my husband. X