Just to let people know me and my partner have been trying for a baby for the last 3 years . In this time it felt like all my friends and family members were having babies. I am 38 years old and had a laparoscopy last year when they removed some adhesions off my right tube. Anyway I got pregnant naturally a month after that ,then miscarried at 7 weeks !!
Since then ive had no luck getting pregnant (nearly a year later ), ive been referred for IVF and last week I had my first appointment for bloods and had a scan .
Since then my much younger sister in law , had baby number 2 just the other day , and I cant bring myself to be happy for her. (particularly as she must have been pregnant the same time as me before I miscarried.) I have seen people posting pictures all over the social media of my new nephew and its tearing me apart . To the point I have deleted my facebook account.
I feel bad as a person as I should be happy and welcoming my new baby nephew into the world and I just cant bring myself to be happy for her at the moment . She also can be very unsensitive.l I feel terrible that I am like this and want to keep positive but finding it all a bit hard .
I try to keep thinking I will have my first consultation in a couple of months or so to discuss treatment so need to start being a more , positive or better person .
All my friends have had babies and my business partner has 3 who is over weight and really unhealthy and it all just seems so unfair.
Sorry I am ranting but wondered if anyone else has been feeling like this too .
I was feeling really positive until this has all happened and I am hoping I will get past this
Thanks for letting me rant people and good luck to you all. xxx