Had my scan done again today b...

Had my scan done again today but it is not looking good. They could not see a sac anymore, but there is still something there. Likely to be a clot. So they did a pregnancy test and came back with a faint positive but that is most likely a false result. So they did a blood test to see what all my levels are there. Will get those results later on today. We are completly devestated all over again. and I asked why do I have to do all this again and they said because they did not do orginal scan and blood test they need to start as if they were just treating us. Which I understand. But still hurts to have to keep bringing it all up again. They also said they would not intervene and just let things happen on there own. x

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O piglet, I am soooo sorry for you in having to go through all this again i can't imagine the pain you both must be feeling right now, my heart goes out to you and your hubby. Don't give up on hope just yet there is still abit hope left from the faint postitive of the pregnancy test and your blood test results later today. Im praying for you that every thin is still ok. Try to hold in there just a little bit longer my lovely, Thinking of you. Lots of love and hugs to you XXX

[babylonia]

Hi Piglet, I am really sorry to read that you are going through such a difficult and stressful experience. There are no words which can comfort you and this is a pain only you and your hubby can truly understand I hope no matter what, you both keep united and strong. I really hope that there is a still hope for your pregnancy to continue successfully regardless of the odds. There is still nothing confirmed, I suppose they could have told you bit more from the scan but perhaps they want to be sure with final result. Finger cross everything to turn out well, wishing you all the best from the heart. Taka care xxx

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Piglet12 I'm so incredibly sorry.. There no words that will ease the pain.. Maybe this afternoon you might get some better news. Got everything crossed for you.. I'll thinking of you.. Wishing you good news Jess X

[pm27]

Dear piglet12,

I've been thinking of you today. I'm so sorry you are hurting so much.

Sending big hugs.

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Thank you everyone. So blood test result showed my hcg level to be 778. So they are doing another one in two days time to see if it lowers or not. but I'm pretty sure its over for us this time round. The blood test today was awful as I had to have empty bladder for it and so was not drinking water. So they just about manged to get one vile of blood instead of the three she wanted. Plus she was moving the needle in my arm and so I felt sick. Will bruise now. I am still feeling rubbish and hunny forcing me to eat as I dont want to. I'm hoping this will pass. ️Xx

[Wuezy in reply to Hidden]

Hello Piglet, Thinking of you. As hubby said to me on Wednesday, we can only control the controllables, so please do eat. There are enough things stacked against us. You are not alone...

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

Hey babes. I am so sorry I really am. I know you've been through a lot to get to this stage. I know how you feel, it's so bad when they want to keep testing you every other day and sadly they said the me they can't tell me it's over until they get that negative or the significant Hcg drop, it's hard for us all the constant waiting, but I suppose they have to be completely sure.

Sounds like hubby is looking after you, which you will need. Please don't be too hard on yourself. My thoughts are with you, here if you need me xx xx

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Hey babes. Thank you. I just am so confused. On one hand they tell me that they can't see anything on the scan and then the next they want to keep testing me till the get a pattern. as they got a positive pregnancy test they want to do several blood tests to see what happens. But surely they know. And I just feel there prolonging our pain for no reason. im really struggling with this and feeling it's still all my fault and that I did something wrong to cause it. And I know I'm probably being silly about that. but can't help these feelings and thoughts. Lots of love to you. ️Xxx

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It's so hard because they are just doing their job, but you feel like shouting enough of the tests now just tell me! I broke down just before the scan when I was talking about the blood loss etc. It's so embarrassing but they must be used to it. I had a positive test at the early pregnancy unit too babes, all the hormones are still in your body and that's why the keep having to test you with blood tests as the hcg hormone levels are meant to double in the early stages of pregnancy. But look hey, we're being negative here, maybe it will be ok.

Please don't beat yourself up. One lady on here had two failed attempts she said the first 2ww she carried on working, general day to day stuff. And the second attempt she put her feet up and did practically nothing and still got the same result. I didn't work during my 2ww at all and hardly did anything. So as long as you weren't running 5 miles and lifting heavy weights or drinking and smoking heavily.... which of course you weren't! It's not yr fault. Even when people get pregnant naturally this happens. It's bloody frustrating, sad, annoying and heartbreaking, but it's not your fault ok? Xx

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I have not been drinking since we started this journey two years ago. I don't smoke. I was not over doing it at all. Just gentle 10-20 min walks every other day. I was eating really healthy food. Drinking plenty of water. So I just don't get it. I had a masive meltdown this afternoon spent a hour just crying in my hubby's arms. I just don't know how to get through this at the moment. Just don't know what to do. ️xx

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

Oh lovely. Please don't think it's anything you've done. You can't think like that. You've done everything right it's just sadly one of those awful sad things that happen. But it's not over yet.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. Take care xx

[Hopeful1982]

Oh Piglet, I've been thinking of you too. Sending you lots of love x

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:( piglet

I am so so sorry.nothing I say can make It easier.

Saying a silent prayer for you both

Massive hugs

[Dee22]

I am so sorry Piglet. Thinking of you both x