For as long as I remember I wanted to be a Mother, and my whole life’s happiness was tied up in my dreams of motherhood. My head knows that its not going to happen but my heart is struggling to accept it. I don’t know what I want now that dream has been taken away, I never thought of a plan B. You expect that you are fertile like the majority of women in the world and it never entered my head that I wouldn’t be.
You. Are. Infertile.
You can’t prepare yourself to hear those soul crushing words. Those words made me numb. I had had something taken from me the day I heard those words. A bit of my heart will always be missing and it will never be filled by a pet, a friend, a husband. That space in my heart was dedicated to my baby, the baby that I would have been a great mother to.
My baby,
I would have loved you with all my heart.
Love your Mummy.
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Hi. That is so lovely but also so true. I've just done the blood test today but we did our own test last night and it was negative. We can't do ivf again so this is the end of this chapter in our lives. I still have images in my mind of our life with a baby. They have been there for so long so I guess it will take time for them to go. I find it very hard to deal with the fact that we would have made fab parents and its been taken away from us, yet people who clearly don't deserve to be parents don't seem to have a problem. Such is life I guess x
Hi Pumpkin, Im sorry to hear that for both of you. I know exactly how you feel. If you ever want to talk to someone feel free to contact me. Its nice to talk to people in the same situation sometimes. x
Thank you. I know what you mean. Everyone that conceives naturally will never understand what it's like. As much as I love my sister and mum, they didn't have any problems so they don't understand. Take care x
This is one of the most beautiful letters I have ever read. My thoughts are with you and I am so so sorry to hear your sad news. Life is so unfair to the kindest of us at times.
All hope is not lost,keep believing,and have faith. I believe God can do it for you, he is the greatest physician of all time....keep saying it and you will see it come to pass.
My bible made me understand in Luke 1:37, that with God,all things are possible.in psalm 113:9, says he settles the childless woman in her home,making her a happy mother of children.
Your time is now , God wants the world to know that without Ivf, he can do it.Be hopeful,Have faith and you will see it happen when you least expect.it is well with you in Jesus name
If you have something that you can have faith in, that gives you comfort, I am very happy for you. But please remember that a lot of us on here do not believe in god and know that there are no such things as miracles, and are trying hard to accept our situations for what they are.
Thankyou maccerpops for saying what I was afraid to say!
your letter brought a tear to my eye and can certainly feel your pain. Life is difficult enough sometimes but forums like these help a little when you discover that your situation isn't so unique and many people are going through almost exactly the same challenges in their lives.
my partner and I never thought we would open our minds to the possibility of adoption (the plan b that you hoped never had to be explored) but that's what we have done. It's not easy, still very emotionally challenging and holding back getting excited about the possibility of maybe just one day finally being parents. Life takes lots of twists and turns, who knows what's next in our unpredictable lives.
Your letter is beautiful and I'm sending you lots of special thoughts. I've just had failed IVF, will have one more cycle then that's it. I also don't have a plan B and find that it is a lonely place to be despite having an amazing husband, family and friends. I'm sure that some how I'll be guided in life as will you.
Thankyou so much to all of you. You haved helped me restore hope and I really appreciate it. You all deserve everything you desire. Sending my love to you all.x
Beautifully written. Although I have been ttc-ing for almost 3 years now, and have been told about my million issues, I can never come to the fact that I will never have babies. The thought of that scares me. I keep thinking about lots of what ifs. You have done a great job in accepting which a lot of people are struggling to do. Now let's pick ourselves up and enjoy the other aspects of life, even though this emptiness may never be filled fully. I am crying with you!
Oh this hit a nerve. Huge hugs for you doll. I hope your heart finds peace. It’s painful and you don’t expect it will happen to you. Then bam. I do feel it’s happening a lot more. I am not sure why, there needs to be more research into this. I just feel lost. I hope we find strength in the small things, to overcome the loss of this big thing.
It’s hard, each day is a struggle. When all you want is to be a normal family. A women who can bear children. To have laughter fill your home. For someone to hold, laugh with and teach. To care for and look into eyes that just see your light.
I do believe in God, (but know not everyone does) but I will say, I hope the universe eases tensions in our heart, and gives us all that is good.
I hope one day you wake up, and Plan B will appear. Lots of love.
Absolutely beautiful. Huge hugs to you. Reading this actually made me shed a tear. You are not alone on this journey. My life has been mapped out for children. Without them I feel empty. Fill your life with travel happiness family and friends my whole heart aches for u xxx
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