Depressed post sorry. It just didn’t happen for us and we tried everything. I’m 37. We’ve had 3 cycles, with 4 transfers and 7 embryos. We’ve had icsi, picsi, pimsi , scratch, fresh endometrium after hysteroscope, steroids and aspirin, all the best supplements and followed the ‘it starts with the egg’ book and took DHEA. All transfers went well, had hormones monitored to check progesterone high enough post transfer, and nothing seemed to have gone wrong. However private clinic have said “it appears your oocytes (eggs) don’t have the capacity to implant.” My hormones are ok - low FSh and AMH ok and not changed in 3 years. I know I’m old. Perhaps my oocytes never had the capacity to implant or perhaps I left it too late. Every time it fails I feel like someone is trying to tell me something and that it’s pointless trying again. Why go through it again just be heartbroken? I know some people try many many times before success but the longer it goes on the older I get....
my partner is now going through the depression of failure and grieving for what could have been, and that’s hard, after he has always had so much hope.
I can feel the empty nest syndrome creeping on, and I keep having visions of us rattling around in a house built for a family with just the 2 of us there. Getting old and having no kiddies to come and visit and meaningless christmases.
He keeps telling me how young and attractive I look to him which I should be greatful for, but what’s the point in a body that has no purpose?? I don’t want sex because it also seems pointless as it’s not going to make a baby. That is so stupid I know. (I know there is no hope of it happening naturally because partner has antisperm antibodies)
I don’t want to go out and make the effort. Nothing seems to have any meaning.
My last attempt at IVF and my egg didn’t survive after egg collection 💔
8 weeks later no AF - scan 
Covid-19 So Close to Starting IVF I could almost touch it
BFN
