Another Surgery done.

[Cola13]

It's been 4 weeks since i have had another 4 hour surgery for my endo, 2nd one in 2 years. To say i'm over ALL of this is an understatement. Surgery went well but again a lot was done. Major adhesions, kissing ovaries, POD Obliterated (what the hell is that??? sounds like something exploded in me) tubes stuck to my colon the works and some other stuff.

Before i went went in for my surgery i told the consultant that i hoped that i would never have to do this again to which he said honestly this will give a rest bite but realistically i may have to go through this again. Honestly i was so nervous about them cutting me open i don't think i took that information in until now.

So much to take in and i feel like it's never ending. I feel like i am racing time right now i turn 39 in 6 days and the pressure is real. Pressure i guess i mainly put on myself because i still want children and a family of my own and i'm almost 40.

The fear is real now and although i'm trying to stay positive it feels like it's never ending. I know my main focus is the physical recover from this last procedure but emotionally my head is spinning with it all.

I was thinking of trying the FODMAP (if that's what its called) to see if this helps. I definitely know i need to look after myself better body and mind. I guess it's all part of the journey

I also saw on BBC news this morning that MPs are to launch an inquiry into women's experiences of endometriosis following the research about bloody time too!!