Feeling pessimistic

[Ash24601]

I’ve been pretty happy most days but today I’ve had enough and just feel sorry for myself/us!

I am fed up of having no life, unable to make any plans. Not knowing what day will be good or bad.

I haven’t seen my friends in ages, every time we make plans I have to cancel, when I am well enough it’s spur of the moment and of course people have plans.

But the most annoying thing is that it interferes with my passion, martial arts and training. I have accepted that I can’t always train and come to terms with doing what I can when I can. I have been looking forward to a competition for months (my first in years) but now I am unsure about the travel (long trip, long day) people are trying to arrange car shares but I just can’t commit without the fear of letting someone down. And it’ll land on the beginning of my period.

I hate this illness.

[vmagpie]

Hey, sorry you’re feeling like this.

Having one of those days myself, really low and angry about my situation and can’t shake it off. That coupled with everyday life, having 3 kids, wanting to change my job...

just feeling hopeless.

I hope you’ve got some good support.

Here if you need to chat x

[Ash24601]

I was made redundant two years ago and had a string of bad luck with employers until recently. I finally found a (better) job with lovely people that’s really rewarding so don’t stop looking, good people and good employers do exist.

[poppy75]

I hear you. I haven't been able to work for 3 years now after building up a career for 20 years. That and the being unable to commit to anything until the day is really detrimental to mental health/life in general. I see the confused looks on friends faces when after 2 years of me planning and cancelling I now just bluntly say I can't commit and as you say I contact friends on a good day and everyone's already busy. It's f'in hard. Glad to hear you've found a new and supportive work environment- that's so good. I don't have any answers regarding friends I'm afraid as I'm battling the same xx