Really strange question...

[Nat21]

Hi, I know this is really odd to ask but I was told when they found endo that my left Fallopian tube is scarred and damaged and that in the future if I want children I may miscarry or have ectopic pregnancies since this I keep having dreams I’m pregnant(usually with a baby boy) and they feel so so real! When I wake up it’s awful I feel so upset... has anybody else experienced dreams like this? As I say I know it’s really strange they’re just awful 😔

[Hidden]

Hi Nat

I’ve had Fallopian tube removed due to endo and I have stage 4 endo on my other tube which has been connected to my bowel. I’ve been told that I may struggle to have children or conceive and have been advised to try sooner rather than later which I am doing.

Your dreams are completely normal as you’re questioning if being a mum will ever happen to you. I’ve had similar dreams and wake up crushed. Don’t give up hope, you still have your other tube!

[Nat21 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you I mean I’m 21 so wouldn’t want children for a while these dreams are just awful though and wow sounds like you’ve had a difficult time with your Fallopian tubes xx

[Hidden in reply to Nat21]

I’m sure you have time. I’ve read some useful information about fertility on the endometriosis uk website which may be helpful for you too- look in their publications section.

Just keep speaking to your consultant and make sure you get support from others.

It may be hard but I’ve read that many women with endo go on to conceive naturally so don’t give up hope. X

[Nat21 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much! X

[weekari]

it's not odd at all- you should hear some of the crazy dreams I have!! Your dreams are just your mind trying to make sense of what's going on. The prospect of this disease affecting your fertility is clearly having a big impact on you. If you keep having this dream, I wonder if you're giving yourself enough space to process this in your waking life? Are you talking about it with people and allowing yourself the chance to let out any feelings you may have? It is totally normal to feel angry, scared, sad...or anything else about this and it's really helpful to let it all out- even if it's a bit messy.

x

[Nat21 in reply to weekari]

I can’t realy talk about feelings it’s never been something I’ve been able to do easily. I think you might be right because I try put it to the back of my mind during the day that’s probably why I’m thinking it during the day, a lot of people around me are having children at the moment too x

[weekari in reply to Nat21]

my guess is that your mind needs to get some of those feelings out and that's what the dreams are about. It's so hard when you will be seeing everyone around you at that stage of their life- a constant reminder for you. I find that really hard too.

It's such a lot to have to contain in your mind- a chronic illness plus any possible fertility issues. Even if your fertility is fine, you're worried about it and that's the important thing- not whatever the reality is or will be. It's so important to let things out. This forum is great for that- just write a vent post, people do it all the time. Or if you struggle to write anything publicly, even just writing a letter to your endo or fertility or whatever seems right and giving yourself the chance to say what it feels like, what it's doing to you and how you feel towards it. You don't need to let anyone see the letter- you can destroy it. It's just for you to get it out. I wrote a letter to my body just last week!

I am a firm believer that suppressing emotions is very harmful to us- I think endo feeds off it!

X

[Nat21 in reply to weekari]

Thanks so much for your advise x

[Bdgjdjd]

this is normal

I don’t have dreams only

I draw my future life 💔

Which is annoying especially if you draw things you don’t want

Sorry I don’t worry about my infertility only

I worry also about my married life my husband love kids but I cannot give him

I don’t know why have these negatively feelings

I was reading for women experiences and was so happy and I thought it will not prevent me getting pregnant mabye some difficulties but this was the worse thing

I was reading about people with stage 1 and 2 and getting pregnant with these stages is possible

What i don’t know about it

Is that pregnant naturally with stage 4 is more likely impossible unless if god with you

And if you really want to achieve it naturally you will need a lot of surgery or laproscopy I concluded this after reading people experiences

I didn’t try yet

But absolutely with stage 4 the struggles will exist because with this stage means adhesions and they make the pregnancy so difficult

Make sure that the severity of the disease it is the reason for infertility

There is a few of people who were lucky enough to get pregnant with this stage without so much difficulties

If you have at least one tube there is hope try anti inflammatory diet

When i think about the disease i am pretty sure it will not happen for( me ) It is really severe for me but i know something that god is stronger than the disease and if he decides that i will carry my babies one day even with this terrible disease it will happen despite any thing

Just pray and ask him 💪

I always say my god is the reason that i live until this moment

My only advice trust god trust god trust god until the last breath

You don’t know how he loves you and why he gave you this disease

💋❤️

[Nat21 in reply to Bdgjdjd]

Thank you so much! Xx

[1Hotmess]

These dreams could be a premonition of what is to come!

[Nat21]

Maybe it’s just been so bizarre they feel so real x