Today is my last day off before going back to work tomorrow after my unsuccessful lap on 30th June.
I am struggling with the idea of going back to work with the possibility of waiting months before I see the endometriosis specialist I have been referred to.
I am sick of explaining to people how ill I am when people say, "you don't look it" or "you look fine, you must be better".
I am really struggling with people telling me, "you'll be fine once you're back at work" or just saying I'm silly for even worrying.
I'm worrying because I'm on high doses of morphine. I'm worrying because I am constantly nauseous.
When I'm at home I can go lie down or do whatever to make me feel a little better but the thought of not having the comfort of my own home is terrifying.
I am so tired of being 20 years old and feeling this unwell all the time with no answers.
I just needed a rant.
I am in so much pain every day and things just seem to have been getting worse and worse and I am just at my breaking point now.
I hope everyone is not suffering too badly today💛