Fed up with being in pain and feeling weak

[Liss89]

Hi everyone I'm new to this site. I'm 28 have 3 children. I have been suffering with endometriosis for years now was diagnosed in 2014 with having a lap. It helped the pain a little but for the past year it's getting worse and feel as tho no one is taking me seriously I have been suffering with depression too which I believe is all linked with my endo. I started a new job yesterday working in retail 39hrs a week luckily it's my day off today as I wouldn't of been able to go into work today my body feels like it's giving up pains and aching all over my legs are swollen and aching so bad keep feeling sick too. I am due back to work tomorrow I am doing 8 1/2 hour shift I seriously don't know how I am going to do it. I want to work and need to to keep my home running but I am really worried about my physical and mental health. I have been laid up all day hardly move my neck is aching so badly I just feel to sleep. I am worried about my new job as I didn't tell them in my interview about my endo and depression as I want to work don't want to be looked at as a disappointment or a failure as that is how I am feeling right about now. I am sick of feeling sick. I thought I could work full time hours and that I will be able to cope but honestly I can't. I don't know who to turn to I am really am trying I don't want my endo to beat me it's draining me so much I have no fight left inside me. I feel so embarrassed just the thought itself of me talking to my manager about the illness. I've even thought about giving up working due to it.