You sound as though you felt exactly the same as I did before my lap, and I'm sure exactly as how many other ladies on here felt too. It's so normal to feel like this, it's unknown to us after all, and we just want answers about our body!
Every recovery is different and individual however I found that I wasn't anywhere near as bad as I thought I was going to be. They give you pain relief as soon as you come round in the recovery room, and aside from that I just needed paracetamol and ibuprofen once I was home later on that day. So definitely good idea to have stocked up on these.
You're likely to feel tired too and lethargic for a little while afterwards, and this again can be so so different for each lady. I've read about some ladies going back to work after 3/4 days!!!! I went back after 2 weeks but really could've done with another few days to be honest. And I've read other ladies going back after 8 weeks. The only thing we know for sure is how our bodies feel, there's little use in comparing ourselves to others...we are all so unique, and so are our recoveries too!!
I found that once I felt like eating after the op, and they gave me a sandwich, I needed so much water to eat it. My mouth was completely dry. And although of course they give you water, it might be handy to have a couple of extra bottles in your bag so you don't have to keep asking for refills.
If you've got a dressing gown too, this would be handy. However it's not so important....it's literally for walking from your bed to the pre-op room before your lap...the gown they give you to wear ties up at the back and has a gap, however they would help you out with that I'm sure if you didn't have a dressing gown with you.
And lastly once you're home and you feel like getting up and doing something, make it just a little thing but try and get into a little routine. Even if it's just waking up at the same time, getting out of bed at the same time, doing something very light round the house, sofa time.....etc. I just found getting into a routine helps so much with your state of mind. Someone suggested it to me partway through my recovery as I was beginning to feel a little bit sorry for myself just laying around, and this really helped.
And keep a positive mind as much as you can.....I'm sure it makes our recovery quicker to stay positive, as difficult as that sounds right now, I know.
They are experts and they will all be doing everything to look after you perfectly. And remember that if you go into the anaesthetic feeling calm, you will come round feeling more calm.
I promise that it will be a better experience than you're expecting it to be...it won't be as bad as you think. Look after yourself once you're home and only try and let positive happy visitors round 😊 I found I really took on the mood of the person coming to visit me, and I felt moods and emotions so much more strongly, so happy visitors only 😊
I'll keep you in my thoughts on Wednesday, you will be absolutely fine.
With love xx
P.s. Love the house deep clean idea!!! 😊