Hope you're all well. I have my pre-op assessment this week and should have my Op date a few weeks following this. The more i think about it the more i am talking myself out of having the operation for Endo diagnosis.
Im worried that I will have the Op and it will come back all clear with no Endo. If this happens i really dont know how i will explain my time off to work, the pain and moaning to my family and the cancelled events to my friends. Im scared it will come back clear and all this pain will literally have just all been in my head and im going to look ridiculous.
I'm so worried that there will be nothing wrong with me and I'm just going to have to deal with and live with this pain. Is it worth having the OP, having the scars, the risk associated and more time off work if there isnt anything wrong? I also dont want to waste hospital time over nothing.
Basically starting to think that i'm better off with no diagnosis than to know for sure that nothing is wrong with me and that i just cant handle pain that every other woman can handle. Dont get me wrong i dont want Endo but i want to have a reason to feel the way I do, if that makes sense..
Have any of you ever felt like this in the weeks up to their Lap date?
Thanks so much for reading, i appreciate any advice! x