Some support needed!!

I'm 28 years old and have been diagnosed with severe endometriosis I have had it removed from the womb but am currently waiting for MRI scan to see if the endo I have on my bladder has gone deeper then will be having more surgery. I have made a decision that I feel a hysterectomy after my bladder surgery is the way to go because even though I have oxycontin and oramorph it doesn't touch the pain at all. I feel helpless and have had this for nearly 19 years and feel I have no more fight left in me. the pain I experience is soooo bad and no matter what I try nothing helps. everyone around me tries to understand but none of them know how bad it gets and that I constantly cry myself to sleep because I feel like it has over taken my life. just wanted to have a bit of rant sorry people xx