I'm new, mid-flare up.

[queerendofemme]

Hi, just another night crying about all the things I wanted to do, all the thoughts I can't hold onto because fatigue is crushing me.

I'm 22 and from the US. I've been struggling with the demon in my body for a few years now and I finally saw a specialist recently after two doctors blew off my concerns. I am having surgery next week, laparoscopic excision and (hopefully) a diagnosis.

I feel like my body has been taken from me. I don't remember what it was like to be pain-free. I'm sick of reminding myself that I'm not faking it.

Just looking for any kind words or advice you might have for someone who is just beginning to really confront the endo in my life. I avoided seeking treatment because doctors were unhelpful, but I want my body back.