I really need some help. My husband and I have been going through a very long 'dry spell' - in short, he won't come near me.
I know he loves me but he says he sees me as a patient, thanks to this filthy disease! (I am severe stage 4 with a bicornuate uterus, dermoid cyst on right ovary, endometrioma on left, hydrosalpinx in left tube and a frozen pelvis)
I go monthly to the hospital to have injections of Decapeptyl to keep me in menopause and in short, I'm more pain free than I have ever been. We've tried IVF once and it didn't work.
We have just come back from a lovely week away together and we even renewed our wedding vows - but, just 3 days later I find he has opened up a Profile on a dating website. This isn't the first time either, I found he had done the same thing when we were going through IVF last year.
I love him so much, but he just doesn't view me 'sexually' anymore, despite me telling him over and over I still want him and not to view me like a patient. He says he feels we have been getting on better than ever and he is trying to find his way back to me, and viewing women on these sites was his way of trying to get that spark back between us (?!?)
Have any of you ladies experienced similar thanks to this disease takin over our bodies? He has seen me in some terrible States, not least haemorrhaging. He has seen things no husband should ever see.
I can't imagine my life without him but I feel worthless.