I was always brought up to be strong. I was taught that we go to work every day and we don't let ourselves down. Now I find myself in a situation where every three weeks I try so hard to fight the pain and weakness but I ultimately end up succumbing to it and lying in bed struggling with the journey to and from the bathroom. Most people don't understand because they cannot see what is happening from the outside. With my boyfriend I feel less of a woman because between periods and biopsies I spend most of my time 'unwell' down there and with my employers I feel like I just let everyone down.I am aware of the whispers and the uncertainty from colleagues. If she is really that sick how can she bounce back so quickly in a few days....etc...etc. Friends try to understand but I know that many don't.I am so tired of feeling like I am failing at the moment.