Just needing a bit of a moan I have put in a poor few days, pain going down my right leg, pain in my right shoulder, sore back, sore head, post coital bleeding and just generally feeling pretty useless and broken. I've just had my period so thought the worst would be over but it seems to be worse each month with something new appearing each time. I've never understood the shoulder thing but looking back it follows my periods too I just hadn't paid it much attention, or rather hadn't associated it with everything else. I have ended up staying in tonight as I didn't feel up to joining my friends in town the thought of jumping about and dancing sent shudders through me as even when I started laughing too hard earlier on today my insides started to pull. I am hating this and I am hating even more that I don't have a diagnosis yet. Nobody can tell me what is wrong and nobody seems to be in any rush too.
I should be asleep but I can't seem to at the moment, the more I try the harder it is and all I am aware of is my right leg, that numb asleep feeling that's not quite sore but is definitely uncomfortable and is just making me think more and more. I want to know how far on this is if I have it because in my head it makes no sense to be this uncomfortable and sore if there is only a little of something floating about surely it would have to be a larger issue??
I am getting myself worked up because all I can think about is fertility. I want family, I want that baby girl or boy or a multiple of each if I am that lucky! but at this present moment in time nothing could feel further away. I feel totally heartbroken at this idea and the fact that this is feeling worse month on month and I don't seem to be getting closer to anything is making it harder.
I just wanted that rant.
I hope all is well with all others out there