For 21 years now, I've been living in solitude. I can't handle people. I do my best to avoid human contact, be it physical or emotional. I have always avoided it as I feel disconnected from the rest of humanity. I work nights and don't really leave the house. I'm quite content being alone to my own devices. This was until a short while ago.
I started getting "cravings" for human contact. Not just to have friends but emotional, physical and some sexual (which is weird for me as I've always gone my own way rather than consider relationships of any sort). Not knowing what to do to initiate conversation and not knowing how to socially interact with another person is making me feel agoraphobic and stressed. Do these feelings or needs or whatever they are ever go?
I really can't stand the feeling of wanting something I've never wanted before and it's making me confused and angry, which for my mind, is a really bad thing