I'm sure by now most of you have read Steve's (smhall's) blog. Steve has such a sense of humor and such a way of looking at things, that at times I get totally aggravated with him...such was the case when we signed up for this last organized 5K. He wanted to sign up immediately when learning about it! Me, not so much! It was going to be in our hometown and all the insecurities started popping up...I'm not good enough...what if someone I know sees me...the route by far would be our most difficult yet...the list could go on and on. Being the great wife I am... I okayed the deal and told him to sign us up. Not feeling good about it, I agreed to do something I really had no desire to do but I knew Steve wanted to. The week of the run, we ran the route twice. The first time was difficult but okay, the second time was very rough for me...
Race day comes...I open my eyes to see Steve's sweet, grinning face and for him to ask me what I hear outside...WIND! Once I even told him I heard the Wicked Witch of the west hit the house! In stepping stones, Laura does the count... 1,2,3,4...this led to me all day ranting and aided by PMS... I went through the house, but mine went, dumb, stupid, crazy, people...every so often tossing a damn and idiotic into the mix.
Our daughter went along to see us off and I had my SIL and BIL show up to encourage and cheer. Steve and I said our usual and a kiss, just in case one of us has a heart attack mid- run. The horn blared and off we went...and off they went...from the get-go, I was winded and having breathing issues, but I kept running! At times I felt like I was running forward only to have the wind blow me back a foot or so...up slopes and hills all the way. The first half mile seemed like an eternity as well as every 1/2 mile after. Usually my last mile I can even tell myself I am going to make it, only 1 mile left. Not the case this time! I was so caught up in just getting through the run, honestly I never once checked my watch after the 3/4 mile mark! I trudged along...telling myself, I think I can...I know I can...trying to encourage myself by affirming I have only been running 3.5 months. On the backside of the run, I did look at my time and I knew Steve was probably finishing if he ran at his usual pace. Very proud of all he has achieved, I continued on. As I was nearing the end of the run, Steve came and met me to do our customary finish. I kept telling him that I didn't think I could finish. With his encouragement and support, I made it up the last hill and on to the finish line. THANK YOU SWEETIE! Later in discussion, he took it as I was wanting to quit...what I meant was, physically, I didn't know if I had it in me to finish. He should know by now I have a bit of a stubborn streak! I truly do not know if I could of continued on another few feet, this run drained me beyond belief, it was absolutely horrible!
Steve and I both did a PB through the finish line! We stayed for announcements and we both earned medals in our age group. Steve/Men's third place and myself/Women's first place. (The pic is of one medal) So it is bright and shiny at the Hall household today!
So, enough of some of my griping about the run and not fully appreciating my medal! This is the week of our Thanksgiving holiday here in the States and this is what I'm thankful for:
THIS COMMUNITY: without all of you, Steve and I would not be where we are at this very moment. We easily would of been discouraged and right back sitting on the couch.
OUR KIDS: they offer support with our running and even though they don't say it, they think we are are crazy. They encourage us and even tell us they are proud of us.
MY PARENTS & STEVE'S DAD: all have passed, but because of their health problems, I decided to make some life changes, which led to C25K.
MY HEALTH I take for granted the health I do have. So many people would love to walk/run but can't.
MY PRETTY GRADUATE BADGE: even though I have a gold medal to show for my run this past week, my virtual Graduate badge is the one that I feel the most proud of. This badge was earned by all the weeks of self doubt, tears, struggles and finally finishing something I started. I was determined not to quit even through aches, pains and injury. When I look at my badge, I have a sense of achievement knowing I finished what I set-out to do.
STEVE: The Lord has blessed me with a wonderful husband and now running partner. Since our marriage we have had many of life's obstacles tossed our way. Through all of it, I am very proud to have him as my life partner. Thank you Steve for being my one and only, for coaching me and believing in me even when I am filled with negative thoughts.
My list could actually go on and on when I stop and think about it.
Sometimes we take for granted what is right before our eyes. I still have the self doubt and insecurities and wanting to preform beyond my ability, but I truly am very blessed in all I have and all I am able to do.
Thank you again to this great Community, because of all the advice, support and motivation here, we continue on with our journey. I am proud to have all of you as my running friends!