Background: injury since July 15th Race for Life. Muscular, right leg, like the edge of the calf near the shin down to ankle.
So, in August I had a few mini breaks from running; four days here, six days there. Each time I returned to running there was still tightness/twinges/not right at all. I took the running back to 4k and tried to slowly build it up again, but things just got worse and running was very difficult(hence last blog) So about three weeks ago I plucked up the courage to have a deep tissue massage. (agony, sheer agony) I had a few days rest after this and started slowly again 20 minute to 30 minutes to 40 minutes.
Now, this is going relatively ok, BUT the leg is still not right, it is sore and hurting for the first 15 minutes or so of any run. I have to take ibuprofen after the run, ice , stretch etc. And I can feel the problem when I walk too, and it's sore to touch i.e. the injury hasn't yet 'mended'.
This week I transferred my half marathon race pack to someone else. I can't tell you how sad that has made me ( although pleased that someone ese can run it instead of course) I know there'll be other half marathons...but it just feels like another nail in the coffin.
So...I don't know whether to soldier on and ignore it, because it isn't REALLY painful or anything, just not healed, so I won't be able to do any long runs.... or have a complete break (a month or something) so that I can run injury free.
I have to add that when I don't run I seem to go into a black hole. I try not to, I try to be strong: it's just running for goodness sake, but for me it seems to keep me well-balanced. I noticed when I had the mini breaks from running that my main concern was not physical but mental, I sort of feel numb on the inside, like I'm not the person who appears confident/bubbly/ smiley at all: that person is someone else.
I tried other things like the cross trainer and swimming, but although this kept me physically good, it didn't help my mind (in fact swimming drives me crazy!)
Am I slightly mad? Probably, and definitely confused