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Good morning runners.

Here I am, in the Staffs' Moorlands, sitting inside and watching the rain streaming down the windows. A grey blanket of a sky and a strange half-light.

I may have run this morning, but the wind and the wet have won. I have being looking at my log/diary of runs which I have been keeping since I started C25K in 2015... at 65. Now, at 72, here I still am, still running, still enjoying, but having experienced and still experiencing, many, many of the things that all we runners share in common!

I love. on days like this to look back at my runs. They warm a winter's day or lift the spirits. I see how far I have come, and what there is still left to enjoy in my runs. I see names of friends past and present, and... I find inspiration? for the posts that I share on my regular Catch -Up Corner.

( Returning on November 1st).

This week past, I have been reading a fair few posts where some of us are struggling a tad. Breathing issues, aches and pains, injury, illness or simply, life hampering our progress. So... coming across this post below, I felt it might not be Inappropriate to RE post it! I wrote it four years ago...

It may help to dispel the fear some of you are experiencing in your runs, and let you see, without a doubt, that the runs wait, despite all, and that your running will surely take you to where you wish to be and to the most unexpected and amazing places.

Have a read if you get a chance:)

" ... Sunday is my favourite run day, and yesterday morning was no exception. Running clothes laid out as always, the night before. Running shoes ready; off road shoes, as a field and lane and track ramble was planned. I don’t always plan. But this was to be longer run, with a little burst of something speedier in the centre 😊

I am being a tad careful still, as I am still taking things gently, after my time on the IC. I have a little regime of warming up, inside and then out for a brisk warm up walk, and I am walking for a bit longer currently…just to make sure everything feels okay!

Out into the morning, and into that Sunday silence that echoes. Closed curtains, sleeper seclusion, and daylight exclusion… a day of rest… and, still, that, almost eerie silence. The sky this morning…slightly sullen, the faint brightness of the earlier hour extinguished by a seamless grey cover. The faintest chill as I headed out up towards the big roundabout on the hill. No seagulls atop the tall lights this morning, and I turned to continue my warm up walk, and as I passed the Primary School I started to run.

As ever, I am taking it easy and making sure my legs are warmed and ready to go, round the Crescent and back out onto the hill to the village. The greyness of the morning served as a perfect backdrop to the end-of-summer gardens… the bedding plants, far from faded and bedraggled, despite lack of sunshine and a wealth of regular rainstorms… Begonias, Pelargoniums, Petunias, Cineraria and Hydrangeas, a profusion of small bedding plants. every colour under the sun, ordered and soldier straight-lined. No sound except my breathing and my feet on the pavement. Taking my own advice… slow and steady, landing lightly and rounding my heels…down the hill and through, behind the station, by the river and out onto the main road through the village, clumps of small purple elderberries hanging, from twiggy branches, heavy-laden over the water. Ducks nesting under the small bridge and the road to the village empty. It was taking a while to get going this morning…a busy week and a busy Saturday… so, maintaining the pace… into the village and up the hill…past the church; no bell as yet calling the faithful to prayer… and a little spurt as I headed up towards the other Primary school.

At the start of C25K, I often struggled up this hill… it makes me smile now, every time I run up it. Then at the top of the hill, turn through and along behind the school. The playground empty, apart from the wooden play Galleon…moored in the corner, anchored to an asphalt sea. I paused here, the chill of the early start, had given way to a brooding humidity… and I needed to wipe my forehead. A newcomer on the grass, outside one of the classrooms, atop a tree stump, a large carved wooden Owl. staring, glassy-eyed at me, across the yard.

As I ran on along by the Hawthorn hedge behind the school, I thought of days bringing my own children to this school… days long past now; happy thoughts, but as some of you who have known me for a while, know, mingled with the merest trace of sadness. A big breath and a quickening of pace now… the gentle start over, I felt I wanted to up my game and a speedy burst was the order of the day…

Through the small estate and out onto Old Road… the sky now, unforgiving in its greyness and the first spots of rain beginning to fall, along past the hedges, black berry-brambled and thick tangled… the tree still full leafed, but with the tell-tale brown shadows, at the edge of the leaves…the large branched trees lean over the road here; the scene of a ghostly encounter in the winter of my Graduation and as I ran, faster now, that memory was with me… the oppressive atmosphere, under the trees, really humid now, as I tried to relax my hands, shoulders and face and focus on the hedgerows and the way ahead.

Hedgerows still green and full, but in not too long a time maybe, bedecked and bejewelled with those fat, red-glistening haws and hips and, goodness, maybe touched also, by the first early frosts. To the end of the road with a steady even step now… my happy pace... the legs strong, around the corner and into the more open space, easier to breathe here. It has been a while, but a quote from Wordsworth, the lines from a poem learned by heart for A level, many years ago, just popped into my head,

“…. Come forth into the light of things, Let Nature be your Teacher.”

Out, up past the Steam Railway, gates now open and the Dragons stirring, noisily, under the watchful eyes of their keepers. Round to the Bridle Path and back down the hill towards the field gate. Into the big field now, the crop has been, finally, harvested, and despite the rain, falling now in a gentle mizzle, the track through, is firm enough for me to keep up my pace. Pausing at the stile and the crossing over the Steam Railway line, I listen… just the muffled metal voiced engines, no bird song or dog bark, not traffic no voices.

I have stopped many times on my running journey at this point, sometimes breathless, sometimes exhilarated, too hot, too cold, in darkness and in sunlight. It is one of the places where I feel part of something immense…a tiny, tiny part, but a part nonetheless. Over the track now… this is where I feel I can run for ever… my legs just take control... everything else just follows…running off road does require care, and even though I feel I could run this route blindfold, I am mindful of the hidden dips and curves and small ankle-turning holes.

The IC is not where I wish to be.

My calf muscle is fully healed now, of that I am certain, and I make the far lane in good time and as I run down back towards the station I am aware that I am very warm and quite damp. I have had a wonderful run. Pausing, once again, under the massive Horse Chestnut trees, I spot a green spiky globe shape… I pick it up and pop it into my belt… it is the answer to a problem, that has been troubling me for a while 😊

I have been struggling this last week or so, to try to find a way to try to help folk overcome some of the very real issues which are bothering them. I feel that there have been too many posts about, fear, apprehension, dread and worry…about runs! My own running rambles have taken a back seat, as I have attempted, as have a whole lot of others in the forum family, to reassure folk and encourage them. This journey is supposed to be an enjoyable one, not an endurance test. I have said many times, it is not about speed, or distance or comparison. It is about running. We all have our reasons for running, but I cannot help feeling, that running with apprehension or fear, should not be included in those reasons.

So please, try, those of you who are struggling, to replace the apprehension with excitement… lose the worry and find the wonder…dismiss the dread and discover the delight…and know that, like the secret hidden inside a Conker shell… it is all there…the strength inside yourself.

You can do this…know it, believe it, enjoy it 😊"

Happy Sunday... Oldfloss

PS

I do always plan my runs now.. other than diversions en route!

For those who dislike spiders in the house.. a few Conkers scattered on window sills do deter them. Obviously out of any small person's reach :) x

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Roxdog profile image
RoxdogGraduate

Beautiful!

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Roxdog

Thanks you... good to see you back with us! x

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Leuna

Lovely and heartwarming! Thank you for reminding us of the big picture. Hugs 🤗.

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Leuna

Hugs to you too ! Warming hugs on a damp day ! Sometimes the picture gets blurred... but it clears eventually x

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RunawayfastGraduate

Love your writing and how you describe everything including your feelings.

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Runawayfast

Thank you.. it is a HUGE part of my running, my running rambles ! x

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FrencGraduate

What a lovely post. I’m also sitting here at home, watching the rain pour down. I had hoped for a nice long run today, but running and lightning don’t mix, so I shall try and look on the bright side - it will give my niggly leg a bit more time to rest 😊.

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Frenc

Perfect... rest up, watch the rain and the lightning... the runs will wait and be all the sweeter!

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Instructor57Graduate

perfect read as I'm sat here watching the rain and waiting for the lightning

i was hoping to run again this morning but with the weather, it now looks like Tuesday will be my next window

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Instructor57

Rain for many of us.. no lightning here though. My run will be Tuesday too! Hopefully a slightly longer one.

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FrencGraduate in reply to Instructor57

Same here Ian. Mind you it’s nice and sunny now (typical!). But I have things I need to do today so my running window has gone in all honesty. We can both look forward to our runs on Tuesday. 😊

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Frenc

It was glorious here this afternoon too... but a lunch of galettes, salad and a glass of wine, ensured no running!

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FrencGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

That sounds delish! 😊

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Frenc

It ways makes us think of a favourite place in Le Bugue...minus the warmth...!

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Instructor57Graduate in reply to Frenc

yes, improved here later also 😐

ahh well hopefully Tuesday morning 😁🤞

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Great post from you Oldfloss reminiscing about that run 4 years ago, you are still running and enjoying it, well done.

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to AlMorr

Thanks Al. Ups and downs, success and setback, but the joy I feel on my runs always wins through. Hard going sometimes though. P

Our runners here always amaze me with their strength and determination through adversity. But like all of us, need to be reminded of how strong they are, all they need to do, is believe it!

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AlMorrAmbassadorGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

This afternoon I visited my daughter, son in law and 2 granddaughters, they agreed to come along to Drumpellier parkrun in 2 weeks time and do a parkrun walk with me, the parkrun organisers have been encourageing runners to invite friends or relatives to come along and walk 5K, so that's something for me to look forward to.

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to AlMorr

Oh Al... that is absolutely wonderful... what a treat to look forward to !

Maybe some photo shots too, if they are willing. It would be so good for our runners to see that there is room for family too, even if they do not want to run! x

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AlMorrAmbassadorGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

👍🚶

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to AlMorr

I've just found a super photo of you from Saturday! We need to post it.. !

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AlMorrAmbassadorGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

I was speaking to the photographer on Saturday morning before the parkrun, he is the father of the run director, I am in 3 photos, the first photo is not long from the start, the second, around halfway, this one was taken from a bridge which the runners go under, the third photo is just at the last 10 metres until the finishing line.

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to AlMorr

i saw all of them! You look great!

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AlMorrAmbassadorGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

Thank you very much Oldfloss, glad you like the photos. 😊 🏃🏾

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to AlMorr

The photographer for that Park Run takes some great shots... !

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AlMorrAmbassadorGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

He does indeed Oldfloss, I now go to four parkruns on a rota, two of them last Saturday were shrowded in fog, especially Palacerigg Parkrun, if I had been running there I would have needed radar equipment to guide me lol, you can see how foggy it was on Palacerigg Parkrun facebook page.

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Running_at50Graduate

Thank you for another beautifully descriptive post and wise words. I struggle with the keeping it positive, will do my best to change this

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Running_at50

Just stay strong...not always easy, I know! But we are all here to support each other and keep each other moving x

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dijepGraduate

Brilliant post 😍

I love reading descriptions of your

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to dijep

Thank you.. I love rambling about my runs xx

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OldManRunningGraduate

Lovely thoughts and thanks for the spider tip 😁

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to OldManRunning

Thanks... you are welcome... !

Aspasia profile image
AspasiaGraduate

Wonderful. And timely - just heading out.🙏

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Aspasia

Enjoy !!! Let us know how it went

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AspasiaGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

It was grey and wet; my first properly muddy run since I started, signalling times ahead when the fields will be too boggy and I’ll be stuck for ideas on what to do. We’re very rural, but fortunate to have our own field and the freedom of those around it (although these are full of cows atm and will be heavily rutted soon). Perfect in summer, tricky when the clouds empty their contents and the clay soil refuses to accept it.

But… the environment aside, I’m finding it easier now, both to run and recover. I’m not afraid of the sluggish start, I don’t feel lost in the middle anymore, and I must be doing something right because in the last few minutes I feel strong, and alive. I was also taken aback when my breathing returned to normal as that process seems to have suddenly halved in time. This was the first time that I found my run to be on the easy side of moderate, which is wonderful.

I should confess this was actually the NRC Third Guided Run which is only 25 mins. Last week I did the first two followed by a 30 min run. I’m wondering if I should just keep consolidating, or try one of the NRC shorter speed runs mid-week, just for fun. Either way, the great news is that, even though I still can’t believe I completed C25k, I’m beginning to feel like I really might be a bit of a runner. Woop. 🥳

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Aspasia

Just fabulous!

What a great run... I love runs like this and yours sounds fantastic! The fields are my favourite place to be.. not mine, but I feel like they are! Public footpath trail from each village to the next!

You sound as if you are doing so well! Enjoying it too!!!

As for the runs... this is you and your choice... shake it up... do a shorter run... enjoy them...I mix and match all the time.. although following a 10K NRC plan at the moment... but that allows for choice and, if I feel like a change I do it!

As for feeling like a runner... you most certainly are... Well done you!

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AspasiaGraduate in reply to Oldfloss

Thank you - I really appreciate that. Feeling very inspired by you all. 🙏

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BrixcosGraduate

Lovely post as always. We are in Lisbon at the moment, our holiday flat is situated on a (not steep but) very long uphill road. I read your post on my return from a very enjoyable 2.5 mile slow jog, and your post reminded me how hard I found running mere inclines when I started C25K earlier this year. Today, I didn't even notice I was running uphill at all! So progress creeps up on us, often without us knowing.

Hope you get out for your next run soon

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Brixcos

It does indeed creep up on us... evolving in spite of us! Huge well done to you and what a lovely location for a gentle run? Perfect... enjoy.... enjoy!

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