Well today was the day, I finished the course and graduated
I'd like to say this was by far my best run, that it was smooth and that I found my pace early on but actually it wasnt. I struggled at first, settling into it. My mind was racing, thinking of past weeks, weeks I'd struggled, weeks I'd found easy. Times when I sought help and advice from this amazing forum
I told myself, enjoy it, listen to the music, take in the scenery. I think it was nerves, excitement, even sadness. I wanted it to be over but also not wanting it to end.
When Jo said, last 60 seconds, I quickened my pace, like I was running for the finish line, then I cried 😪 I did it, I finished the course, from start to finish without repeating a run. Longer than 9 weeks, but I dont care, I did it. Overweight, no confidence, self doubting, mildly depressed, emotional me, I had done it.
Back in May I had repeated week 1 four times and gave up in a tantrum thinking I would never be able to do it. Started again, and joined this forum.
What have I learned
I'm not the failure I thought I was
I'm stronger than I thought I was
The kindness of strangers will never fail to overwhelm me
Self belief is extremely powerful
It's ok to not achieve something the first time round
I'm going to miss Jo and updating my progress, but I am going to continue to run.
Thank you to anyone who has offered me support and advice to help me on this journey, I'm extremely grateful. I know I wouldn't have got through the early weeks without the support.
Thank you, I think I will now cry on and off throughout the day 😇🥳🎉🏆⭐🍾