Gutted again

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I caught a stinker of a cold 4 weeks ago and at the same time I'd done something to my knee, I tried a run on it but it wasn't going to happen and the cold was horrendous, never produced so much gunk so fast, so I was forced to stop. any way on a different note I'd visited the GP and asked about if cold and knee could be linked as the arrived and disappeared at the same time and she said yes cold can Cause a virus that affects some joints, ok fab I've got an answer to my knee pain. So finally felt better knee was feeling good started exercising again started with 3 walks nothing silly didn't want to be back on the couch again! Felt good, so I went back a few weeks in the plan and did a run and it felt great, knee was fine & i didn't die, win win!!! 2nd run went well hour after my shower my knee is hurting again and now I'm back to the couch, I want to run I'm really enjoying it, I will never be the fastest or have an excellent technique but it was my time and I was having fun and I'm gutted I'm on the side lines again.

Sorry it so long and no point I just want to rant so I'm not bottling everything up.

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No problem. It's not fair is it when you really enjoy and want to do something and then you can't have it due to things beyond your control!

It's normal you feel like that as its disappointing when you really enjoy something and set your heart on it only to be told no you're not having it and it's good you feel like that in a perverted sort of way as it means that you are seriously interested in running and enjoy it.

It's better to be open about how you feel as its not fair to you to let these things fester inside as I have learned myself.

Off the record last year I was really looking forward to a Valentine's weekend away with my then fiance only to be told it the last minute no I couldn't have had a couple of hours off unpaid and I had been really upset and my ex boyfriend had said how that was an event that had been important to me and how it's upsetting when you think you are getting something only to be told last minute no you aren't and that it hurts!

Now looking back I feel that was an accidental gift when they were mean over that couple of hours as with me it was what had brought me to the decision to resign from that job but I hadn't done it asap as I needed time to think it over as it was a big decision and how you can't do these things on a whim so had taken the plunge in October and gave them my months notice and had finished at the end of November last year and they were extra horrible during my months notice but it only confirmed to me it was the right decision and I don't regret it either!

They had been mean to other colleagues as well so I wasn't that special to be hand picked by them to be bullied!

It's disappointing though when you are really looking forward to something that you really enjoy only to be told or fate intervenes that you can't have it!