I always find the first few minutes of a run rather hard, but after a few minutes or so, I settle in to it, get a rhythm going, I have found 'my pace'. Listening to my tunes, knowing they're about 3-4 minutes long, so when I've heard a whole tune I know the run is almost done. This time, as the second tune started, I realised that I'm not going to hear Michael say, 'Well done, slow down and recover with a brisk walk until your next run, you're doing great!' This time there was no slowing for my well earned brisk 3 minute recovery walk. Panic! But, I say to myself, you can do this, just slow the pace, take your time, breath deep, keep running, just keep running, don't stop!
Stop! go on, you know you want to, you're getting on now, done your bit, deserve to relax, take it easy, put your feet up, leave running to kids and athletes, go on, stop, give it up! Those mind demons were hard at it too!
Michael J has it spot on (as usual) when he warns, this run is more of a mental challenge, and boy oh boy! I felt it, mentally and physically too. I have to admit, this one I struggled with, but I pushed through, I never stopped and when MJ said, ok just 60 seconds left, a little extra energy and determination kicked-in, saw me clear through to the end.
The sense of achievement, for this run especially, for me, was one of my best so far. I'm sure you will have your special runs/achievements too, the one where you faced up to and took on a particularly tough mental and/or physical challenge. I know what you've been through, or are about to face and you have my admiration and support.
Keep calm and carry-on!