Morning family,
Another Wednesday morning, another 5am alarm clock, another run. It took me 20 Mon to convince myself to get up and not to postpone my run, and another 15 min (instead of regular 5-10min) home warm-up before I pushed myself behind the front door. Shortened warm-up walk in chilly still dark-ish morning, and off I went, heavily layered as I fell under the weather (but nothing serious). Slow and steady. After about 3-5 minutes I needed approx 30-60 sec walk break to calm my heart and clear my nose. I said to myself: 'OK, I can do it's and miraculously convinced my legs to change walk into jog. I was going slow, very slow, I was just trying to go slightly faster than during my icy Monday run.
It was run full of prayer to my legs, to my lungs, enormous amount of willpower to keep going. At least twice I was on the line of just turning around and going home, but I decided not to give up. I was giving up too often in the past. I am a new person, I refuse to give up, so I didn't. I kept moving forward with deep breath meditation. I didn't notice when it got bright, I almost bumped into another runner. However, those 2 sentences we exchanged fueled my willpower with this drop to just keep me going. All my focus was on breath in and breath out. In the end, my body knew what to do, and it knew the route. During this run, first time I've checked my phone as I thought I missed the end signal. No, I didn't.
Where are my running gods? Where are my Go Gadget legs?
I finally reached the cool down walk. I turned off my tracking app (Endomondo). And I cried. OK, I didn't, I shed 2 tears. My screen was showing: 'Best in 2018: 3 km 20:31. 00:35 improvement'. I got my PB! And 35 seconds are quite a lot! How this extremely hard and difficult run fueled purely with willpower and nothing else gave me my Personal Best?! And here it goes again - tear rolling on my cheeks. When I become a person with such a willpower?
After stretching and shower, I felt light both on my body and my mind. I started to sneeze a lot and a small capillary in my nose broke. So I have a bit bloody runny nose 
But don't worry, I don't have a nose bleed. It's nothing serious.
In case of doubt, follow the programme. In case of more doubt, follow the forum. In case... Go for a run!
Happy running! Even terrible run may surprise you - never know 
I'm 'only' on W7R1, so still some way to go. I've been on this point once, so hold your horses. Save your hands until I will complete W9R2 
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