I know everyone is running for different reasons and with different goals and challenges to suit them so I’m not sure why I feel the way I do about my park tun experiences.
It takes a lot of girding of my loins to make the effort to go and run effectively in public . so today I was talking to one of the volunteers on the way to the start and an older man ran past us and she said that’s my neighbour he runs here from the town 2 miles away does the course and then runs back home again so already I’m feeling intimidated .
I set off slowly and steadily, uphill start and as usual made a determined effort to run the whole route, no walking breaks. As I was coming towards the end of the route a very nice lady ran beside me, lots of encouragement being offered and I felt rather good til I suddenly realised she was tail volunteer so that meant I was last!!! Now I know it doesn’t matter and that I really have nothing to prove to anyone but myself but today mentally I was back in school being praised for “taking part” by the sympathetic teachers.
So calm down dear is a mantra to myself. Keep doing this because you can , block out the rest of the runners, it is winter and only the most dedicated and determined runners are out there, you are not the fat unfit kid you were and why do you care so much about where you fit in the scheme of things?
Does anyone else feel like me ?