Having conquered the urge to let Laura warble at time and a half just to get the whole ghastly process over and done with, I am now mid week 6 on proper time and delighted to be there.
I have run through mists (keeping an eye out for any Killer Clowns although I don't think rural Somerset attracts them- fog smears the make-up), rain, school buses full of gurning school kids (my own cringing with embarrassment among them) and the derisive laughter of the gremlins.
Yesterday I had an annual diabetic check up. No matter how much I pretend my Type 2 is down to familial tendencies I have to admit to being too fat and too lazy and I dread these appointments as they are stark in making me accept how unfit I am.
They also remind me that my Mum died at my age (48) of a heart attack and if I don't do something to keep my heart healthy I am merely beckoning similar problems my way.
Well, yesterday I learned I am at my lightest, lowest cholesterol, lowest blood sugar, best blood pressure for SIX years!!
I know I can't put this all at the door of Couch to 5K but it has a hell of a lot to do with it. I am also happier. Although the Nurse was so pleased with me she suggested sprinting intervals next- ha! Good luck with that advice.
This morning I ran as the sun rose over the Somerset Levels and was just so relieved I stuck with it so far. That I managed to push those thoughts of how I must look, that I would reach my 5 K but would still be a torpid slug, that I was just wasting my time as I'd always be a blob, away for just long enough to get the runs in.
Now I appreciate where I live and how I live much more and I am convinced I'll graduate. My Mum would be delighted!
If I can do this at 48 with at least 2 stone to lose and a vat of self-doubt then everyone can get here. Never give up!
The gremlins are the only clowns.
I wish you posted more... your two posts are great! They really make me smile.
Well done you for getting on with this and just doing it.. I just wish I could give you some slightly more positive vibes..
When I read your posts, there is a real contradiction of positive and negative comments.... You are so right to push those negative thoughts away... you are not a blob, you are not a torpid slug... you are a strong woman who is determined to find the person she really is and wants to be. You call it a 'ghastly business 'and still you just run...Wow!
Just open the tap on that vat of self doubt and then fill it with the strong draught of determination that you obviously have !
Pesky mind gremlins are a pain.. they either have to be ignored or squished flat with every step we run
You run, in what sounds to be a beautiful, and clown-free area... you are physically really, really, making progress, you have external affirmation of that.. brilliant! There are a few of us on here with parents, who are not withing reach anymore. but they are there, in us, in our minds and in our hearts... your Mum, I feel sure is giving you the boost you need to do this
So, slow, and slower, steady as you go and keep posting please?
There is a great quote... ( Sorry i am a bit of a quote freak)
" Don't be afraid if you run with doubt and uncertainty; just keep running, they won't be able to keep up ."
Thank you for this- what a lovely post! I am so glad the Levels are level
I will get there and it will be thanks to people like you.
You totally will get there.. we will be right beside you...or behind you giving a small shove!
I am 66, and a year on after C25K, still a running beginner, still learning, still running three times a week... and I am a tad pleased because have just managed a 10 K...I was the original Grey Nail and as the saying goes.. if I can......you know the rest