I am in Peacehaven Sussex- is there anyone around who would like to do this with me- we can support one another.
The Ugly truth- I am queen procrastinator. I damaged my back and have been on some heavey painkillers. The same time my thyroid went from overactive (I looked anorexic) to underactive....and I put on more and more weight...I am now no longer a dress size 6-8 I am a 14-16 and 13 stone....I hate how ugly I am..I have social anxiety after a history of being abused..and it all feeds into my depression and my pain which I am in constant supply of feeds my lack of motivation and I eat because I feel so crappy. My mood is ,...well...it's really bad sometimes.I have to do something. The sad thing is I was a gold medal long distance and sprint runner and so active through school. Now look at me....how things change. I am 35 now. I don't want to die. I don't want diabetes. My birth mother(I'm adopted) died at 36 from cirrhosis of the liver due to alcoholism. i am FASD diagnosed too since I was 6. Things just are not going to sort themselves...I know some of the meds I am on don't help my weight...I want to come off them but my dr refuses. I want to do this. I NEED to and I have to do it NOW. I am about to move home (still peacehaven) so I am under a lot of stress. Much of is it unnecessary stress I put on myself. I want to get well. Please if there is anyone like me out there or you are feeling brave we could be good support for one another and honestly? I could do with the company. I don't go out, I haven't left the house for years....I don't even have any friends. It's not that I am unlikable..I just..don't know how to approach people but I want to. So if there is anyone who is interested nearby...please let me know!!