Hello everyone,
Here I am struggling through B210K, and I must say overall, in comparison to C25K I'm finding life with Sam Murphy an emotional rollercoaster!
On my last run- W2R3 (15:1 x 3) - I felt invincible. I'd taken a trip back to where my parents live and where I grew up. After a two day rest day due to a pretty impossible schedule I set out, much to the amusement and confusion of my parents who hadn't heard much about my running exploits. Anyway, I set off, and from the very beginning I felt that 'good run' feeling, my breathing and stride felt almost mechanically steady and I tackled hills (even some of the long, gradual variety) entirely fearlessly. I ran 7.2 km in the 47 minutes and felt like the queen of the world. Running on roads i'd known for so long put the distance I've started to cover into real context and I was amazed and delighted.
Then there was today. Back home. First run of week 3 (17:1 x 3). Tired and grouchy from a weekend of boozing, 'social smoking' and 'carb loading' i.e. sitting around eating pizza. And it was hell. There was no 'zone' there was no 'buzz' there was no 'plateau' there was just a sweating, wheezing me, with blistered feet and a lot of weekend regret. But I did it. It was hard, and it was slow, very slow. I only managed 7.7km, a pithy extra 0.5 km in the extra 6 minutes of running time.
But heck, there are some positives; Today, despite the exhaustion and generally low mood I knew I wouldn't stop. I wanted to, maybe, kind of, but unlike at times in C25K I knew that these were empty threats from one side of my brain to another. And this encourages me, somewhere along the line I have become so stubborn that I know I won't stop running before I even consider doing so. And that's good. Also, this run has made me think about Laura again, and how I can bring her encouragement into my new runs. Next run I'll definitely be telling myself 'Remember, it's just a gentle jog'. Hell, in the spirit of being kind to myself I might even take the odd extra rest day here and there.
Anyway, do let me know how you're going on and if this (love/hate) relationship with Sam is normal,
Over and out,
Emily