I'm sorry to everyone I'm sorry

[Faithfull]

I stopped the tablets i really am sorry but I'm scared I'm ill dr last week on phone said are you taking the tablets I said no she said take them I had just explained that I can't eat much as I terrible pain in esophigus and at bottom of it it feel like ball of pain and I'm full of infection , I'm really low as I called GP again as now lump in groin and leg longer foot dropped 2yrs after hip replacement dr did not even no he refused home visit .

I'm in despare because of my complex PTSD ADHD fear panic as I'm in a constant state of grief stricken hell on knifes edge as this is since 2016 every yr I have to wait the out come of parole board .

As 11yrs ago the person got nine yrs on public protection order I'm sorry to put this but I no I'm an emoitionally wreck but the infection ears eyes and I'm not even under neurosurgery as the same hospital for 2yrs sent me to wrong dr . I'm so sorry I have no one to speak to me daughter ain't well I'm frightened me insides ain't right I feel like I did before they done radical hysterecomy .

I hope to be out this area 3 weeks where I feel safe and proper dr as leaving me is in humane the phyical and mental health i can't even get victim support as to long ago!

I'm sorry as I feel out of order I don't no what to do any more its discussing. And I don't want anyone to go threw this ,to many illness thank god it's not someone else as they could think they get on the drink .im sorry it's bit much to have all this at same time I needed to come on here it's my safe .xx

[Caspiana]

My dear Faithfull .

I am so sorry and feel so sad reading your post. I wish I knew what to say to help you and make things better for you. If the doctor won't come to you, and you feel so poorly, please call an ambulance. It's so difficult when things are so stressful.

Sending a gentle hug.

Cas xx 🌻

[Faithfull in reply to Caspiana]

Bless your heart ,I felt bad as I didn't want to make my one else feel bad but i could not shake off the ongoing fear feeling and I thank you for reply xx

[Faithfull in reply to Caspiana]

I went hospital Thanks didn't wanna make everyone worry I put post up as been sleep.

[Caspiana in reply to Faithfull]

*Hug* 😘

[Hidden in reply to Faithfull]

Hi Faithfull,

Good to hear you went to the hospital. Hope that they were able to help you.

Clearly, many of us here want only the best for you and also know that it can sometimes help just having a place to talk about your fears.

Wishing the best for you,

Mary

[Faithfull in reply to Hidden]

Yes went there could not sit in chair to much pain bad this morning I'm going to call see from housebound as it its and bed bound

As of pain I used to the back pain but the whole belly is rock hard looks like phantom pregnac

[BSA-3]

Hi Faithfull, we've talked before and there's not a lot I can add to what Caspiana has said above. I will say though; please use this forum as much as you'd like to. It's what it's for. They're a great bunch with a vast wealth of knowledge and I'm positive that they'd be more than pleased to try and help - I know I am. Even if it's just for a chat or anything else. What you're having to go through makes both no sense and my blood boil. What is going on? Why are you being left in this way. I'm at a loss as to what to say. Do you have a social worker? Is Citizens Advice any use to you? I really do not know. I will echo Caspiana though and say that you MUST ring an ambulance if things deteriorate further. You can contact me anytime you wish. Please stay strong and take care - Nick

[Faithfull in reply to BSA-3]

Thanks people can't belive that there is nothing I've embed called safeguarding adults but waited year for visit I'm to ill to sit in AE feels like I'm in and out of labour

[Gemma68]

How are you doing now faithfull?

[Faithfull in reply to Gemma68]

I'm looking like the baby's well overdue ? Size of bloated belly and feel like I'm having pressure from inside pushing all me organs out yes that really how I'm feeling it gets to a peak evening drinking water

[Hidden]

You are always welcome on here, I'm glad we had a good chat on the helpline too.

Take care.

[Hidden]

There's nothing I can add to what's already been said Faithful. All I can do is send my love and let you know like many others my thoughts are with you as you battle on. Just remember we are all here for you

xxx

[vickyvickykk]

Lots of hugs and good wishes.

[Brett11]

I wish we could afford to move you and your daughter to Australia Faithful.

[GrannyDoll61]

Poor you. Life can be such a struggle but we do really all care about you. More love and cuddles and take care xxxxxxx

[Faithfull in reply to GrannyDoll61]

Thank you that was really lovely and made me really cry as I care about you all and thanks for being there for me biggest hug and love on it way to

You x

[Angelann69]

I know your emotional pain. The helplessness when you are too sick to move. It's a terrible position to be in. I wish I had some fantastic advice for you, but I feel the same. I'm so sorry. I'm really hoping that someone here has an out for you? Big Hugs, Faithful. You have nothing to be sorry for.

[Faithfull in reply to Angelann69]

By your reply has made me feel uplifted that you genuinely care .biggest cuddle and just to make you laugh.but it's true ,sending u a proper old school east end cockney,love and good,Thankyou. Bless your heart .

[kyia]

Having no one to share our fears with is really hard. There are always people on the forum you can chat to and hopefully that will help a little xxx

[Faithfull in reply to kyia]

Thank you it's just everyones not well and I didn't wanna make anyone feel worste thanks for being there for me thanks everyone x

[Pussycat432]

Bless you faithful whenever you feel down come to this site. It's awful when you feel in despair. There are so many ppl that would like go help you here. Sending kind thoughts to you n a massive hug xx