Run for success

[SueAppleRun]

I slept a bit better last night even though Garmin still gives me a poor sleep score, I'm thinking more a hangover from COVID than anything else as my heartrate doesn't go quite so low.Anyway, there I am, propped up on pillows with a cup of tea reading in bed and sneaky little thoughts about food started to drift in, I suddenly thought 'i can't eat until after my run so I better get a move on'

Then I started to think about all the places I love to run, up on the Downs, along the river, along the seafront, round our park and even out the door and round the streets, after a bit of a think I decided I could go to all those places without using the car, start near and go further the stronger I get.

To the park, put Run for success on NRC app, set off a generic playlist, walk to end of close and turn right. I was just pondering walk to park and go round? Or start running after 5 minutes? When my phone rang. Earbud out, answer and it's a friend of Willow's so explain I'll be back soon and put earbud back in, sadly music out of only 1 earbud even after some messing around with disconnecting and reconnecting which was mildly irritating but one ear is better than none, so I set off again and decide on a slow run. I'm an old lady and I ran yesterday I'm sleep deprived and my nutrition is probably at its worst, all things to work on.

Run along, music, coach B, sunshine, this is lovely, so I cried a bit, entered the park we ran yesterday wondering if I'd get as far as the sea, I didn't

Stopped to take photos, ran round and back home, slow pace, some walking, but so good. Text from hugely encouraging daughter. Did you go?

Stretch, made tea and feel at peace.

Run happy or rest well.

[Shake-and-run Graduate10]

you are an amazing person!

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Shake-and-run]

Don't feel amazing but determined to keep going and finding my way and running and this forum helps hugely

[Runnin-g Graduate10]

Sounds wonderful, a great start to your day.

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Runnin-g]

It was great 😀

[Roxdog Graduate10]

You are just awesome. That's wonderful.

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Roxdog]

I can go back to my book now and eat 😀

[59er Graduate10]

One step at a time. I don't know how you do it - you're obviously a strong brave woman. The running is giving you what you need right now and it's good that you know that. Well done Sola 🙂

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to 59er]

Thank you I don't know either and I don't feel strong or brave so I do what I can and I can run a bit

[Instructor57 Graduate10]

Well done Sola.And feeling at peace is good 🙂👍

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Instructor57]

It really is thanks

[MissUnderstanding Administrator Graduate10]

Great run. It’s lovely when the bluebells are out. Just keep putting one foot gently in front of the other and being really patient and kind to yourself. ❤️

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to MissUnderstanding]

I am thanks, I'm so slow but I no longer care, my legs keep going and that's all that's important right now 💗

[MissUnderstanding Administrator Graduate10 in reply to SueAppleRun]

Absolutely. Run, walk, sit for a while. It’s all good. Do what you need to xx

[LottieMW Ambassador]

You’ve got this 👍🏼

Sometimes when life is sh*t, running is the easiest thing to do…🏃🏻‍♀️🐌

Now lose yourself in a book and eat…📖☕️🍴💕

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to LottieMW]

Thank you, yes reading helps too

[LottieMW Ambassador in reply to SueAppleRun]

🤗

[Cmoi Graduate10]

Another beautiful photo and post SueAppleRun .

I know it's such a cliché to say this, but I really do think Willow would be so proud of you. Run, read, play the sax, take photos, laugh, cry, whatever it takes to get you through. 🤗😘

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Cmoi]

Thank you Cmoi I did go through a stage of wondering how I could go on without him, but I have a lot of hopes, dreams and ambitions still so I have to, here's the last song we played yesterday and for me the words sum it up perfectly. 1drv.ms/v/s!Aj6XC6O35Uph1Wd...

[Cmoi Graduate10 in reply to SueAppleRun]

Oh thank you for that gift SueAppleRun 🥰 It's made me laugh-cry. What a perfect way to complete your celebration of Willow's life xxx

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Cmoi]

It was one of my favourite and so many people who were there yesterday were in the photos

[Leotigris Graduate10 in reply to SueAppleRun]

oh Sola, that was so lovely

[RuddyRunning in reply to SueAppleRun]

Thanks for sharing that, it was beautiful, I'm so sorry for your loss but I'm in awe of your strength. Well done for just keeping going.

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to RuddyRunning]

Thank you,

[Oldlady64]

In so many ways that is a really lovely post, thanks. I’ll use it to help me to get out for a run once I’m back home from my trip away, later today.

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Oldlady64]

You will run when you are ready

[Dexy5 Graduate10]

Great that you got out in the sunshine today Sola. It’s lovely to see the bluebells out again. Here is a cheerful photo from RHS Wisley yesterday - they have a Tulip Festival on, and those dancing hares just make me smile.

Dancing hares

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Dexy5]

They are lovely aren't they?

[Oldfloss Administrator 60minGraduate]

Just sending you my love....xxx

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Oldfloss]

Thank you Floss and sending some back, xxx

[Folkylass Administrator]

Well done Sola ! Your strength seems to be returning in more ways than one. Keep going sweetheart and you get through this and to quote Shake-and-run …” you are amazing”🥰🥰

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Folkylass]

Thank you, I should hear soon the results of the coroners investigation, but from every doctor I've spoken to it wasn't preventable, I just keep going

[Frenc Graduate10 60minGraduate]

I’m so pleased you got out for a run, you are pretty awesome Sola. 😊

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Frenc]

I just have to do something otherwise I'd wallow in bed all day and be even more miserable

[Frenc Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to SueAppleRun]

I hear you. 😊

[Birdlady64 Graduate10]

Having hopes, dreams and ambitions and feeling at peace are beautiful things. You are a wonderful person Sola, well done!

It's amazing how much release you can get from the simple act of putting one foot in front of the other isn't it? I remember coming to the end of one otherwise totally unremarkable run shortly after Dad passed away and literally bursting into floods of tears.

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Birdlady64]

Sometimes the run releases the emotions, yes, it's really hard but I know it will ease

[cheekychipmunks Graduate10]

Such a strong brave lady. ❤️

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to cheekychipmunks]

Trying to be

[Week7 Graduate10]

Beautiful weather for walking or running just when it's needed....

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Week7]

Absolutely

[Doris8 Graduate10]

Well done Sola you are very brave. Willow would be so proud of you, like everyone on hear is 🤗

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Doris8]

Thank you x

[Wavy-chick28 Graduate10]

Do what makes you feel good, fast or slow long or short it’s good to get out .

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Wavy-chick28]

It really is I'm so glad I can run

[GTFC Graduate10]

Love this Sola 💚

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to GTFC]

Thank you, 😊

[Maisiecat1 Graduate10]

I love to read your posts and I admire your inner strength 💪. Keep on keeping on. 👣We are all here waiting for that next photo Sola. 📸😍🏃‍♀️Xx

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Maisiecat1]

Thank you, I don't feel strong, but running helps xx

[apatsyf Graduate10]

You are so brave, Sola and keep those runs, dreams and ambitions in your mind. But don't be afraid to let your grief emerge or be surprised if things take a long time to heal and get worse first...... Lean on your daughter and keep running and finding peace and joy in the beauty of the natural world, as you always do. You will get through this time and Willow would be so proud of you. 🏃‍♀️🐈‍⬛🌳🕸⚘🍂🫖

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to apatsyf]

Thank you, it's a bit of a rollercoaster, happy memories flood my mind and sorrow fills my heart, but I wake up each morning knowing that a run, however short and slow will be my time to not think

[Melissimo]

I love this post. It's real, its life and it's all of us. 🙌

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Melissimo]

It certainly is, thank you

[Cantstopmenow Graduate10]

Beautiful ❤️☀️🤗

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Cantstopmenow]

Thank you 😊

[Run46 Graduate10]

Well done Sola...you are doing so well in what must be a very difficult time in your life. I'm impressed by your strength.

It sounds to me like you're doing your best to take good care of yourself...& great that you have your daughter close by & looking out for you xx

[SueAppleRun Graduate10 60minGraduate in reply to Run46]

Thank you, lots of rest, good food and running, I'll get there, I really don't feel strong though, just going through the motions, got to keep moving xx

[Run46 Graduate10 in reply to SueAppleRun]

You'll realise when things start to feel a little easier, a little more relaxed and you look back & see how strong you were to just keep on going, even on days you didn't feel like it.You can only continue to be kind to yourself...you're doing great xx