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Soggy, sunshine and self doubt...eye roll πŸ™„

Mummycav
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Hello my lovely family, well, what a morning??!! Firstly, I couldn't decide where to run today, on strava I needed to run a 10k to get my sept 10k badge so I wanted somewhere that i enjoyed, but then part of me wanted somewhere I'd never run before or maybe a while ago...but I went with my gut and headed down to the canal...parked up, fed the parking machine its breakfast and warmed up for 5 mins, that takes me to the first lock...well, the torrential rain had made the canal overflow into the river running parallel, crossing the tow path and I had to do that funny walk like when you walk on a new carpet in your shoes, a kind of tiptoe movement?? My feet were wet before I started but not really any wetter than they've been before, I like running in the rain as long as it doesn't double my weight!! 5 mins up, started my trot for about 1k...then I hit the wall. What am I doing?? Colder air made sure, even though I'd remembered my inhaler, that my lungs just wouldn't open up..I have to do this kind of sobbing thing and I know I'm going to be ok, does anyone else do that??? Stopped my watch...started again...no no I'll do intervals, stopped again, no no I'll run a 3k, stopped it again...no no I'll put Laura on, stopped again...oh ohhh, tears..I'm crying, feeling absolutely rubbish, that's it, I'm packing in...I'm throwing my headphones and trainers into the canal..I am just not cut out to be a runner..what am I thinking???? I am not joking when I say I stomped back to the car, cursing myself under my breath while tears ran down my face...how can I have been running for a years, yesterday being my 2 year runniversary of graduation, and still be struggling..what is wrong with me?? The fishermen must've wondered what the heck was up with me!!! By the time I got back to the connection between the canal and river the water had risen to about 4 inches but I just waded through, cross, so not giving a monkey's about my trainers....gets back to the car, sped out of the carpark, grrrrr, I was cross. I went home, realised i had a breast screening at 10.10, yes, I'm in that stage now and I dont like that either, this is just adding to the fact that I am not cut out for this....but while I was waiting to go in, I looked on strava, desperately seeking some inspiration and a reason not to pack it all in...after a good squashing I went home again and instead of getting in the shower, I found myself locking the door, with me on the outside, making my way across the road to the park where I decided to do some interval work...my head was so wanting to run today but my lungs and legs were protesting...I warmed up for 5 then started some 1/4 mile intervals, so 1.30secs walk inbetween ....and I thought right legs and lungs, because you've protested today I am going to make you suffer so I did the intervals again....and it worked...I felt I'd had a really good work out, I'd got rid of my crossness, even though a little bit of me felt like I'd cheated doing intervals but it really is hard work...not every run is a good run, but sometimes theres a way around a bad day...just do a bit of jeffing which is a run/walk method because any distance is better than being on the couch whether it's a run, walk or run/walk...you will feel so much better for going, I promise. I didnt get my strava 10k badge this month but theres always Oct and I'm still on track for my medal a month with my virtual runs. Have a lovely week everyone, however and wherever you run

MC xxxx

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Tbae
TbaeGraduate10

Well done on your two year runniversary.

Your one tough trooper Bev.

Be good to yourself and keep on keeping on.

πŸ‘ŠπŸ’₯πŸƒβ€β™€οΈβ­οΈπŸ‘πŸ‘β€οΈ

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
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Thankyou so much Tbae, you know what I'm like, i get so frustrated and after 2 years why am I still having these kind of days??? But we're only human arent we and every day is different x

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Tbae
TbaeGraduate10

Indeed we are Bev.

Your generation knows some stuff, not just the problems but you have the solutions.

Exciting times.Can’t believe I’ve scratched around for 7.5 decades.πŸ€”πŸ™ˆπŸ˜‚

Hey Ho Bev, we all have different needs and we only have to reach out and take what we require.

Go you Bev.

πŸ‘ŠπŸ’₯πŸƒβ€β™€οΈβ­οΈπŸ‘πŸ‘β€οΈ

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Mummycav
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Tbae you must look on with despair at the world sometimes?? I am happy with where I am but just need to be a better runner to be complete!!! Thankyou for always being on side xxx

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Tbae
TbaeGraduate10

Love it.

Enjoy this gift you have given yourself.β­οΈπŸƒβ€β™€οΈπŸ‘πŸ‘β€οΈ

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
in reply to Tbae

I try Tbae, honestly I do xx

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Tbae
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I never doubted that for one moment.πŸ‘

Your a star and everyone on here knows it except you.β€οΈπŸ‘ŠπŸ’₯πŸƒβ€β™€οΈβ­οΈπŸ‘πŸ‘

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Slinkymalinki
SlinkymalinkiGraduate10

Happy runniversary! πŸ’πŸŽ‰πŸΎ I never imagined running would be like life with its ups & downs - thought you could just put the trainers & go & it'd be fine. But alas, no. Sorry your run was frustrating but good for you for giving it another go. Like to say, any run is better than the couch even if it's not what you'd had planned - I should really heed this advice at the moment! Hope your scan went ok & you continue to get out there as autumn unfolds. X

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Mummycav
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in reply to Slinkymalinki

Thankyou Slinkymalinki ...I know, I think that's what i thought, trainers on, headphones in, watch set and off you go...ha, it's far from it isn't it?! Any run is better than no run shall be my mantra next time out! I do love running in Autumn, the colours,the temperature, everything is perfect...its just a little bit soggy at the moment but I don't mind rain at all...happy running Slinky x

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Sadie-runs
Sadie-runsGraduate10

Very good write up dear Bev - I felt your frustration! Happy runniversary my dear friend. 😘 Look, even elite athletes have their bad days, so don’t sweat it. What singles them out, is they don’t give up. And look at you - you didn’t give up, you just adjusted your plan. Just like a pro. πŸ˜πŸ‘ Glad you managed to have a good work out nonetheless. Intervals are HARD! The 10k can wait. Everything you do goes towards your fitness, even if what you end up doing wasn’t on the plan! You are a fab runner Bev, don’t doubt it, ever. xxx

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
in reply to Sadie-runs

You're right of course Sadie-runs, every run adds to the bank and builds up fitness...10k is something I never thought I'd ever run anyway so I just need to remember what I've have achieved...thank you my lovely friend xxx

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Sadie-runs
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😘😘😘

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quirkybee

I know how you felt Bev, both with the running issue (though still not out there yet, lol), πŸ™„ but also having the "squish/squash" test as it reminds us of the next stage/age of our lives. Still, it is what it is and hope all is well.

I quite like jeffing, there is nowt wrong with it at all. You read up on it and you'll see.😊 Glad you did a bit of running, determination got you through xx

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Mummycav
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You're right quirkybee, but the saying you're as old as you feel is one that I keep in my head all the time...my Mum was always young for her age so I aim to be like her...jeffing enables us to run further doesnt it so maybe a bit more of that is in order instead?! Hope you're doing well Beth, love your walks with the dogs on strava xx

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MikeJones68
MikeJones68Graduate10

Well done for not giving in, Bev. What a day! Funny how we feel we HAVE to get those badges isn't it? I went several months without getting the 10k one this year but, as you say, there's always next month :)

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Mummycav
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Thanks MikeJones68, it was a right start!! It got right to the last week of sept and I was on track to get the escape plan and then that went out of the window too!! No matter, I'll sign up for some Oct challenges...they do keep us motivated don't they?

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MikeJones68
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Yep, I guess that's why they set them :)

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UpTheStanley
UpTheStanleyGraduate10

I’ve been running for over 50 years and still have bad days - don’t know why you think you shouldn’t after 2! πŸ™„πŸ˜€πŸ‘

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
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Wow UpTheStanley, 50 years?! I bet you really have had some ups and downs...I've had a word with myself and at 2 years I am def still learning!! πŸ˜‰πŸ˜œ

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GoGo_JoJo
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What a day, but you turned it around! πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜

We put such pressure on ourselves with those virtual medals don't we!! I find Mondays so tough because suddenly your week's progress is gone and you're back on 0! New Monday blues.πŸ™ˆ They're both motivating and pressure in one!

Don't beat yourself up, we all need tantrum now and then πŸ˜˜πŸ’•

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
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I did GoGo_JoJo and I felt better about it when I'd done..and yes, the big fat zero at the start of the week is a 'got to get going again' sign but a motivator too!! Who'd have though running was so complicated?! Tanteums happen now and again but at least I know in not the only one when I vent on here?!! X 🀣

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Beachcomber66
Beachcomber66Graduate10

Mummycav what are you like? Doing a Basil Fawlty on the tow path? Brilliant determined recovery 😊. Yorkshire grit shows through again πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

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Mummycav
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That made me laugh out loud Beachcomber66 ...Basil Fawlty!!! I suppose I do do a good impression?!! Theres going to be no grit left in Yorkshire if I carry on?!! πŸ™„πŸ€£ x

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backintime
backintimeGraduate10

you beat the gremlins and paid into the running bank - that's great!

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
in reply to backintime

Thank you backintime, I guess I did!! Turned out ok in the end!!

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backintime
backintimeGraduate10
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I like to think of it like giving money to charity

If you regularly gave money to charity, and one day couldn't give as much as planned, would it be better to give what you could, or give nothing?

(yes, I have had to talk myself into runs way too many times :D)

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
in reply to backintime

I like it 😁

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alisonx
alisonxGraduate10

Congrats on the 2 year runninversary!

Thanks for posting this, I think we all let the gremlins take over sometimes, knowing that once we get out and do the run we feel great afterwards. Clearly a case of mind over matter for you...well done on getting out and doing the intervals.

Its good to remember that any run is better than no run, advice i need to take myself!

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Mummycav
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in reply to alisonx

Thank you alisonx, its good to beable to be honest too, that way people dont feel like it's just them that runs like this happen to. It still takes me a lot of thinking to accept that any run is better than ko run, even though I know it's true x

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alisonx
alisonxGraduate10
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yes me too, i even struggle to accept that anything less than 5k is simply not worth it why? time to retrain the brain i think

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Mummycav
MummycavModerator
in reply to alisonx

Haha, sounds like your brain works like mine!! Imagine thinking 3k isn't worth as much as a 5k??? 3k was impossible once upon a time!!! What are we like? X

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Bluebirdrunner
BluebirdrunnerGraduate10

You have bucketloads of Yorkshire grit MummyCav. πŸ’ͺ definitely a trouper as Tbae says. Well done for a super workout, you should be proud that you didn't head for the couch but carried on for a great session. Kudosβœ‹πŸ˜Šxxx

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Mummycav
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Thank you Bluebirdrunner, you are never away from the sidelines cheering me on...xxx πŸ₯³πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸŽ‰

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Run46
Run46Graduate10

Now that's some serious perseverance you found there...very well done πŸ‘

That explains why you're two years in and still playing this crazy running game we all love (and sometimes hate)!πŸƒβ€β™€οΈ

I thought for sure you were going to tell us you went home for coffee and cake instead πŸ˜‚...mmm, cake!

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Fishypieface
FishypiefaceGraduate10

Oh MC, sounds like you are putting yourself through the running mill and being incredibly hard on yourself in the process. What would you be saying on here if someone else posted this today? You'd be telling them how amazing they are for getting this far, encouraging them on. It's your 2 year runniversary - celebrate!! Congratulations :) xx 2 years of doing more than you did before. You are still out there trying. Many, many more have given up - or never even started. Remember that wonder when you could do 30 mins for the first time? You are awesome!

I am still struggling too - haven't got any further than 6k for over a year and since the summer have lost my running mojo completely. Arse cheek still playing up. Gave myself a talking to, do I want to carry on with this or not, cos it's doing my head in all this overthinking about it all the bluddy time.... answer was yes.... so I decided to slooooooooow right down. I'm not quick by any means I usually do a km in 6:50 to 7:20 depending on which way the wind's blowing but I've managed to slow right down to 7:30 to 8 a km. It was hard psychologically as I'm always pushing for more. But what does it matter to me really? I questioned why I do it.... for the health benefits, the sky first thing in the morning, the clarity it gives me (for a fleeting moment!!). Anyway, slow is a revelation! Renewed my love of it all. Relaxing and enjoyable. Sometimes I do 3k sometimes 6k but I don't set myself targets and I'm happy for having got out. Does it really matter how far I go?? I'm still a runner, just my own way..... plus I could almost nose breath at this rate too :)

I even caught sight of myself in a shop window which confirmed my fear that I run like I've pooed myself (I secretly knew this was probably the case). Previously I would have probably stopped in a sweat of self loathing but no! Bugger it, I shall run if I want to, my way, cack legged!! :)

I hope you find the love in your own way, that doesn't hold you to any tough expectations. You are doing a fantastic job every time you get your trainers on xxx

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grumpyoldgirl

That's one great attitude and a lesson to us all. And it's made me laugh ! πŸ˜‚

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Dexy5
Dexy5Graduate10

Congratulations on your 2 years of running Mummycav. πŸ₯³πŸΈπŸŽ‰πŸŽŠ

I think we’ve been let off lightly with the downpours I’ve seen in the news but it must affect your get up and go. You got out again and you ran. So good on you girl πŸƒβ€β™€οΈπŸ‘πŸ‘

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