My brother and I had to do CPR, and the images just keep going over and over and over in my head.
My life has revolved around my mother for the last couple of years, as I am/was her carer, now I will have to take over care duty for my dad.
But it just feels so raw, feel so numb, tonight I've had a few drinks to try and help me sleep, as last night I only managed 2 hours, but life Will never be the same
Its a case of a big part of me has died with my mother, people keep saying it will get easier etc etc, but no my mother was practically my life for so long its just unexplainable the feelings that I have right now.
I feel like I am in a black void and people keep talking and nothing is registering, it feels so unreal.