Do we have any anniversaries this week?

[chloe40]

I'd love to hear from <3

Chloe

[kenster1 Volunteer]

hi Chloe yeah its my dads second anniversary on Wednesday.

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to kenster1]

Hi Kenny,

Thank you! we'll be thinking of your dear Dad on Wednesday <3

Chloe

[kenster1 Volunteer in reply to chloe40]

yeah that's my permitted walk sorted it wont slip my mind like his birthday did.

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to kenster1]

It never would Kenny <3

Take care

Chloe

[Hidden]

Hi Chloe my grandad died in 1984 on April 5th. He was 73 when he died. I miss him so much 😭

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Hidden]

Hi Hidden

Yes, I'm sure you miss him, we never stop loving our grandparents do we?<3

Chloe x

[Hidden in reply to chloe40]

He was a certain kind of special. He taught me to swim. I became a speed swimmer. Infact he did teach me alot in my 13 years with him. To always carry on an never give up.

[chloe40 Administrator]

It's the anniversary of my dad birthday on 6th, so as ever he will be in my mind and heart <3

Chloe

[conspirator]

Hi Chloe,

I cant even remember when i joined this group, unfortunately i remember why.

This easter marks 3 years since my Freda was here, i never know what to say, i didn't 'lose' her, i'd barely taken my eyes off her since she was born... 2017 April 13th, can't to this day bring to mind the time.. She was 13, 2 months and 5 days old, the bravest little soul, battled through all her health conditions.. I thought she was invincible...

There was so much stuff i still wanted to say, do, feel with her... 3 days in intensive care. They said she was 'brain dead'

I just remember i couldn't hear anybody properly... They seemed in such a rush to turn off the life support, i was willing her to come back... But as soon as i agreed with them the hurricane in my ears stopped howling, the room became bright and calm, her face, her little face changed visibly... I spent over 2 years just wondering what if.. What if I'd have defied the medics, what if I'd have fought them off for even another day, what if she was willing me to fight for her...

Three years on... I still cry, howl sometimes,... I've just started a part time job so I can buy a headstone..

Sometime I even forget shes not here... Then when memory comes crashing in on me.. I remember, it still knocks me off my feet... It's such a helpless feeling, trying to control the unchangeable..

Freda - Joyce 09/02/04.-13/04/17

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to conspirator]

Hello conspirator <3

It's good to hear from you even though I can clearly feel the torture you're still going through.

So young, so loved your dear Freda- Joyce, bless her little heart.

Please know that you did all you possibly could have for your daughter and the outcome would not have changed whatever else you had tried<3

Let her rest and celebrate her life {{{hugs}}} stay close to her with your memories and love, no one can take that away from you, no one!

You're always welcome here, you don't need to be afraid, you're among friends<3

Take good care of yourself

Chloe <3

[conspirator in reply to chloe40]

Thanks Chloe. Life goes on they say.. But I know my world stopped turning...