Do we have any budding poets here?

[chloe40]

Would you be happy to write a piece for us, we love to read your work and hopefully inspire others to contribute, I'll even try myself, how's that?

Chloe

[chloe40 Administrator]

I’d known you all my life

Your warmth, your love and care

I thought your illnesses were feigned

but now I understand.

That life can be so cruel for some

while others find such peace

But that is something even now

I still don’t understand.

I wish I’d been more thoughtful

But I was not to know

That life can be so painful

But now I understand.

Chloe

[Greyone in reply to chloe40]

{{{teardrop}}}

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Greyone]

I have no idea where that came from, I was thinking of my Mum x

Chloe

[Hidden in reply to chloe40]

That is so powerful Chloe40. It sent tingles right over me. Big big hugs,

Lottie x

[Greyone]

Thank you indeed fir sharing such a personal piece with us. Maybe time will tell you more.

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Greyone]

Thank you Greyone x

Chloe

[kenster1 Volunteer]

up above the clouds and the deep blue sky

there is a place called heaven.

full of angels flying high.

we look beyond them

and then ask why.

you held me first I held you last

but you will never be in the past.

you gave your freedom to watch me grow

forever greatful that you know.

you where my mum my hero my friend

up into heaven my love I send.

when I lost my son you held me when I cried

as you know what its like when your kids had died.

now that dads gone to be with you all

up above the deep blue sky

I will still be crying and asking why.

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to kenster1]

Oh Kenny kenster1

This is so poignant, so beautiful and such a lovely way to remember your dear Mum. If it were me Kenny. I'd write this out and keep it along with some photos and special things of your dear son, Mum and Dad and keep them in a memory box.

Chloe

[GoGo_JoJo]

She's Gone

Here we go into the abyss

of confusion and take our seats

on the rollercoaster of emotion and

on into the tunnel of darkness

which death brings the living.

-

Bring me light at the end of this

everlasting passage and freedom

from the weight of burden

which hangs heavy on my soul

today and so many yesterdays.

-

Your release should be mine -

for too long I carried your pain,

your bitter tears and twisted lies,

your misery and self hatred

clouding my beautiful skies.

-

Be free at last and leave me

once more alone but now

no drama, no lies or schemes.

Leave me finally; your damaged

child and mother of my dreams.

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to GoGo_JoJo]

Hi GoGo_JoJo

Thank you so very much for writing this and posting. I do hope that writing this has brought you a little comfort, Do you write poetry generally?

if not, you may find this to be a healing outlet, I do hope so. We'd love to read your work more often.

Chloe

[GoGo_JoJo in reply to chloe40]

Thank you. It's something that comes in bursts during both good and bad times. I used to write a lot, both poetry and journaling but now it's more sporadic. I wrote that just before heading over to sort her things out. My stress levels were through the roof so it was an outlet of sorts 👍

[chloe40 Administrator]

You're very talented! we've a regular slot here for you whenever you wish.

Chloe

[GoGo_JoJo in reply to chloe40]

This was another loss, many, many years ago now...

Consequence of Choice

.

I made a choice, years ago.

It was “simple” he said

one of us had to got to go.

.

A life for a life,

we were never going to be

a family; man & wife.

.

“Keep it if you wish” he said

“to you, I can’t dictate

but please do not be misled.”

.

“If it should come to my place

seeking anything at all

I shall deny it to its’ face.”

.

I take all of the blame,

the choice was mine to make

included, all the shame.

.

I think about you

at least once a year.

It’s something I can’t not do.

.

Baby, what could I do?

I had dreamed so long

of one day holding you.

.

Yet I felt so young,

alone, my dreams dashed,

my ideals seemed far flung.

.

Even now I shed a tear,

I can’t really believe

it has been eighteen year.

.

I’ll never have another.

I couldn’t bear to look

upon your sister, or brother.

.

Baby, I’m sorrier than you know

I never knew you, or you me,

yet I really need to let you go.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Thank you GoGo_JoJo

This is so poignant, I cannot imagine how you felt {{{hugs}}}

Chloe

[chloe40 Administrator]

From Hidden

I want to share my journey with grief. I share it with you as I was writing, starting as a poem and then morphing into writing. My partner passed away Nov 2014:

Unseen

Unheard

You walk beside me

So I have been told.

Almost four years on

Are you still there?

I do not know

But I believe you are.

I have endured the most intense pain,

of grief,

of desperately wanting you,

the brutal loneliness of life without you.

At times I really did not want to carry on.

Yet I am still here.

People tell me I am strong to have faced this monster. I do not feel strong but I know I have an incredible ability to survive to choose life, to live. I feel that change within - wanting to live again. Life will never be the same again, it cannot be, but I am willing to live with this. I do not believe I will have to go through anything as painful or as incredibly hard again. I am willing to LIVE. That feels so positive.

As for my love, he will be forever in my heart. I will ALWAYS love him. I know I am now starting to contemplate letting my love go, if he is ready. I am not quite there yet and I put no pressure on myself however, I feel this will happen when the time feels right,

Lottie x