Hello everyone

[chloe40]

We seem to have come to a standstill with new posts, if there is a reason preventing you from posting, please message me in confidence via the chat tab..

Thank you all for your support.

Chloe

[GoGo_JoJo]

Hopefully it's that people are finding ways to move forward, lighter, without such a heavy load 🤞🏻

[Greyone]

I hope too that no news is good news.

[Greyone]

I think different people respond to different types of posting and that is why I think many join in rarely. Mmmmm.... (i wonder if there is a question buried there somewhere?)

[Brina423]

I been dealing with a lot on my plate but the other day I had a total meltdown and it threw me n a emotional turmoil and I still ache this time I noticed that this time last year mom was hear and we talked about my older sister passing away 4years ago in June and momma said u have to be strong then feb 2 mom got sick and wen the ambulance took her no one thought that that was the last time she would be walking out that door and March she passed and I cried screamed yelled and was so emotional that I threw up this crap is so hard I feel like I can’t breath I feel guiltily eating mom’s favorite foods if I even smile at something yes I know mom wants me to be happy but this guilt it’s so painful she will never hold my first kid if I have any she won’t be at my wedding she won’t be able to hold me and comfort me and yes I have my dad but a mothers hugs and comfort is different and it’s gone :( everything changed at 2:15 March 5 2019 my world has changed and I can’t think about the next moment the next day I just wanna lay n bed cry and want my momma

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello Brina423

Your post is heart breaking {{{hugs}}} I really feel for you. You're right of course, so many things that we will miss about our Mom and it hurts so much.

You really sound as though you are struggling and maybe a chat with your Doctor who could refer you to a bereavement counsellor for extra support would be a help.

Our lovely members are always around here when you need us Brina xx

Take good care of yourself.

Chloe

[Brina423]

Chioe I do see a counselor but she said it’s normal idk my heart is breaking every second I breath I want my mom and I got a big hole in my heart

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Brina423]

I'm pleased you do see a counsellor Brina, it's so hard for you, I completely understand how empty you're feeling.

I can't take away that pain Brina but everyone here will share their tips of coping with loss I'm sure.

I found making a memory box really helpful, I put little things that reminded of my loved one in there, photos, birthday cards etc. even keep items of jewellery given as presents, anything that reminded me of them. I decorated the outside too and keep it under my bed. In the early days, I took it out most evenings and looking through everything and reflecting on them, then I disciplined myself to 15mins each day, that was my time to be close to them and it helped so much.

I plant a shrub or other plant that I know they loved and also celebrate their anniversaries by cooking a meal we both loved, little things like this got me through and I hope they will you too {{{hugs}}}

Chloe <3

[Brina423 in reply to chloe40]

That’s a wonderful idea if I can look at that pictures it hurts I never felt a blow like this even wen my sister passed it hurt real bad and momma comforted me now she isn’t here and my kids will never know her touch or smell her country accent her laugh ughh wen mom left it took everything from me she won’t be at my wedding.. IM IN PAIN how do I go on my mom and dad adopted me wen I was 3 I already have separation anxiety and Ugh this isn’t fair I’m questioning everything even god ugh I’m sorry to be depressed but this hurts and sux