I am in my early 20's I was with a guy who was sleeping around and he knew he had genital herpes for years and had passed it on to previous girlfriends (I only found this out after I caught it and split with him) my first outbreak was about 5 months ago.
It started with a small sore and then after a few weeks becoming very sore In-between my bum cheeks above my anus and it was also very itchy. I remember waking up in the night itching like crazy so I got the partner to have a look at it and he convinced me it was fine it was just a rash and nothing to worry about and to use some sudocrem.
A few days later I had gone back to my parents as he convinced me he needed some space so I headed back to my mums, that night the rash was getting worse and I started to feel sore In the vaginal area so I decided to examine myself a little closer ... It was then I relalised this is just no little rash.
I woke up and the rash had spread everywhere and I was in agony, I will never be able to express the pain I was in I had taken painkillers but nothing seemed to help the pain was so extreme it was in my anus, all around my vagina and I just wanted to die. I couldn't urinate and I had constipation from where it had spread in the Anus area. I ended up getting rushed to hospital in an ambulance where they gave me very strong painkillers, tablets to make me poo and medication to clear the breakout and let me go home.
From that day onwards I felt my whole life had been destroyed, I still feel that way to be honest. I haven't spoken with anyone that has this also yet and anyone that has tried to explain it has made it sound like its a dreadful thing to have.
I'm still trying to get my head around it all really, I feel like I will never be able to have a relationship again, how do you explain this to a guy at my age?
Thank you for reading and if you have any questions Fire away,