Feeling .....

[sue48]

I woke up in the night feeling so fed up and down....well more than that really. That awfull feeling of another day here and another found of meds nebs 02. Steroids. Infusions fir immune system pain killers eye drops and impending surgery. ! Started feeling more and more down. .but you put on agood show downt you ?? Just feel.having these problems all my life (66) is getting bit too much. Every day bloody struggle. I looked through window this morning and couple next door in garden. Mowing lawn and generally tidying up .....and i felt so jealous and angry. Isnt that awfull? Now i feel guilty. !!!

[knitter]

I was awake in the night too, really fed up with battling on...then read Jimmy's post as I couldn't sleep about carrying on fighting. Had an argument with my husband instead as he kept shutting the window when I opened it ...had to sit on the back doorstep instead...don't think that what jimmy meant!

I am going to google anti inflammatory diets now....for my lungs and my temper.

[sue48 in reply to knitter]

Hmmmmmm husbands. Eh. !!! I think batteling on is such hard work ,then you think why. ?ther,s not much pleasure in it is there. I know sun shining summer coming. Flowers coming out etc etc. But .........oh i,m going to shut up now !!!!

[knitter in reply to knitter]

Seems my husband was right after all.....just heard on the radio that air pollution levels are high in some areas....9 where I live...so windows should have been shut.

[peege]

Feel for you both Sue and Knitter. I don't know how you do it. I get very down too, thinking what's the point, have to take one day at a time unlit you see a bit of light - and I'm not as unwell so now I feel guilty!!

It looks as though it's going to be a dreary day today so I'm biding my time until tomorrow and try not to think about two of my children forgetting Mothering Sunday and think about the third one who did we had a lovely day yesterday so all's not lost. XXX

[knitter in reply to peege]

One of my daughters forgot Mother's Day too, no card or text. I have found Andrew Weils Anti inflammatory diet on Google...so I will have a look at that. I have eaten fish fingers, chips and peas everyday for the last week as I couldn't be or here'd to do anything else...not a good idea

[Hidden in reply to knitter]

Big hug for you too knitter,do the same to your daughter,as I told peeg,let her know how you appreciated the card from another!!

Do take care with your diet,as that can affect ones moods too xxx

[peege in reply to knitter]

Oh, I'll look that up. Fish Fingers and frozen peas are my comfort food, no chips though! Perhaps I should treat myself, no no, mustn't. I need to lose a few kilos by April 24th. A nice man taking me sailing out of Dubrovnik for a week so I've GOT to be well & be able to bend & stretch without busting m'trews!

[Hidden in reply to peege]

Oh peeg,big hugs to you,can imagen how you felt,I just think certain days are held in high esteem by some,& others can't see the point!

So glad you had a nice time with one of them anyway,better than none!

Just let the others know how much you enjoyed the day with......!

Don't you feel guilty either,we all have to listen to our feelings,& let's face it,most of us have a hard battle,one way or another,take care xxxxx

[peege in reply to Hidden]

Not really moaning Wends. My son usually rings me on French Mother's Day from France where he lives and I know my other daughter is a bit sad at the moment.

Hope you're feeling a bit better. I'm fighting off something myself grrrr.

[Hidden in reply to peege]

Well we are all entitled to have a moan sometimes!

Green with envy at you going sailing in Dubrovnik,no,you are not allowed to moan!!

Enjoy,will be longing to hear all about it,love to you,xxxx

[sue48]

Oh peeg. I,m so sorry 2 of your kids forgetting mothers day. It should be banned (mothers day ) fathers day ,birthdays , christmas easter andvalentines day. . Arent i a misery. !!!!!! They just discussing mothers day on the wright stuff. ! Big con. X

[peege in reply to sue48]

Yes, horrible how everything is so commercialised. In France they don't have this ridiculous greetings card excess that we do here. xx

[Hidden]

Hi sue48, sorry you feel so low at the moment. Although I have mild lung conditions, I do suffer with other illnesses to which there is no cure. I live most days in pain and have days like you, when I feel,'what's the point'. The fatigue is actually the worst symptom, so I play my CDs. I seem to get a buzz of adrenalin listening to my golden oldies. It brings back good family memories and lifts my spirits. Steroids are notorious for causing mood swings, and I take enough of them. So like me, have a blast of Matt Monroe, Gene Pitney, or whatever your choice. Sounds daft, but It might work.

[Hidden]

Nothing to feel guilty about Sue,if we are all honest I'm sure we've all felt that way at times,but then tomorrow is another day,hopefully a brighter one!!

That's what im telling myself anyway,lol!

Take care,we're all behind you,love Wendells xxx

[sue48]

Thanks for all messages of support x. I seem to have turned this usually posative site singlehandedly into a negative one. !!!! How,d that happen. ??? He ha. ! Right , going to go and sort out insurance on car, hubby managed to bump it over week end. No one hurt. Only his pride annd my TEMPER. !!! Thanks again all. Sue. XXX

[peege]

Grr, I get that feeling. I got in my car last night to take my daughter home to find some b....... has knocked off the wing mirror (which I always tuck in) and scraped my car

I'm normally positive but occasionally we're allowed a grumble, it's hard sometimes. My poor dog has to listen to my bad language again!

[Hidden]

Good Afternoon Sue - Everyone is allowed a grumble and you certainly are! I hope that you have a bit of sun this afternoon and it lifts your spirits. Take good care of yourself and be kind to yourself. You sound like you need a bit of looking after! With lots of love for a speedy recovery TAD xx PS Hope the neighbours have the courtesy to go indoors by now!!

[sue48 in reply to Hidden]

Sorted oout insurance ...no problems. Think i frightned him a bit. ! Neighbours gone in ...no stamina. !!! Think im going to get hubby run me domn b and q. And i going to get some of the brightest colour paint to paint my pots with. !!!! How does shocking pink sound. !??? I been going on a web site called. Shabby chike. " ( or something similar ) beautifull pics of gardens . Rooms and all unusual stuff. Beautifull flowers and pots. Take a look. !! Makes a change from respiratory. Lot love. Sue. Xxx

[sue48 in reply to sue48]

Soffy given you wrong information ....its called "shabby in love. " take a look ....only thing is wants to make you change house and garden from top to bottom. !!! Can but dream. !! X

[ChrisPeacock]

Each day we wake up is a good one the other option of not waking up and not having a new day to face is a bad one.

[Beetroothead]

I find I now tell people how I feel (it is such a relief after years of bottling things up). If they don't like it...tough.

With our illnesses we don't know how long we have left.Make the most of it.Explain to loved ones how you feel and how upset their behaviour can make you. How will they know otherwise? Be true to yourself. If all else fails.. see your GP and get some anti depressants.. how else will you know how your story ends unless you are there to see it?.Much love to you and good luck with your story.x

[sue48]

Yes i find this site very helpfull too ! I think sometimes because you stuck with your thoughts and not able to do so many simple things that every one else takes for granted you just think oh s %* it dont you. ! Sometimes ...daft i know ....you dont tell your loved ones cos of upsetting THEM. !! Anyway thanks for listening to me having a winge its true what you say ...They,ll all wonder ahats hit em tomorro !!! Nite n bless. X