Happy new year

[taramag]

hi all, it’s been a while since I posted. If I’m entirely honest I stopped posting because my recovery was going so well I was just constantly posting about my wins and didn’t think it was fair to the mamas who really needed support. But at the same time I wasn’t ready to be a support myself (I think that makes sense)

I just wanted to come online and say thank you so much, the support I received from APP and this forum has been incredible, I’ve made wonderful friends and really feel like I can talk about my experience which is amazing considering how unwell I was.

I also want to try and give some hope, I had my experience in 2021 and after a lot of antipsychotics and therapy I’m finally off everything but an anti anxiety med and I’m being discharged from therapy this week all being well!

Final thought: This too will pass, intrusive thoughts are just thoughts, the power we give to them makes them harder to handle and you are an amazing mama.

I’ll be in touch soon - lots of love - especially to lillybeth, Emimum and pikoura who have helped me find me again

Tara xoxox

[Ramlah_at_APP Volunteer]

Hello Tara,

Awwww what a lovely message , I am so happy that APP Where able to help you in your road to recovery . You are a living testament that there is hope for all the mums who are struggling ❤️

Wishing you all the best in 2023 and many more years to come xx

[Pikorua Volunteer]

Dearest taramag,

such wonderful news about your continuous process. Well done in your recovery! So proud of you and happy that we could be of support to you.

Good news are so important to share, too and an uplift to everybody. HOPE and BELIEF!

Always here...take good care! Health and happiness for 2023.

x

[Lilybeth Volunteer]

Wow taramag .... what a star you are and made my day! I was watching the film of “The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse” yesterday (I bought the books for my grandchildren for Christmas) and managed to catch the animation on tv. I found it very moving and decided I was the fox who said he always kept quiet as he had nothing interesting to say. But then to read your post I now feel like a Giant!

So happy that you are now blossoming into that flower, pushing up relentlessly to find light after all you have endured. Good health and happiness for 2023 .... we are all Giants with hearts of gold 🌹 Take care .... you are an amazing mama!

[taramag in reply to Lilybeth]

ah lillybeth I loved that movie! My friend bought me the book when I started my pp recovery and I just loved it so so much!

Thank you so much for being such an amazing light for me when I really needed it, it meant more than you’ll ever know!

Giant hugs

Tara

[Lilybeth Volunteer in reply to taramag]

Ah yes Tara I read the book before I wrapped it and loved it too! So moving when he was asked “What is the bravest thing you have ever said?” To which he replied “Help”. So we are all super brave here to have asked for help and found friendship in the midst of that all consuming despair.

Thank you so much for listening too .... I am so proud that you have come so far by your own sheer determination. Carry on being the amazing gentle Giant you are Tara. Funny enough I saw the advert last night which reminds me of our chats .... still singing along and still standing too!

Big Giant hugs 💜

[HelenMW Volunteer]

what an inspiring message to read this morning. Thank you for posting such hope!

My episode was so long ago in 1988 and there was nothing like APP and I worked hard to understand what I had been through. I wanted desperately to talk to someone who could understand and empathise.

I appreciate your Final Thought and found CBT to be very helpful when those intrusive thoughts come.

Thank you again for posting such an encouraging message.

Warm wishes, Helen

[Maria_at_APP Moderator]

Hi lovely Tara, happy New Year! So glad to hear you are going to be off medication and discharged from therapy! Never restrain urself from posting because u feel things are going well. Positive stories give so much hope to everyone. I remember at the begining of lockdown, 2020, the amazing Lillybeth posted on the forum links to really great resources of activities to do with ur kids and yourself while at home, and it was just perfect!

I liked a phrase from a movie I recently saw called Tick tick boom (its on Netflix), the supporting character tells the protagonist: "you need to ask yourself in this moment, are you letting yourself be led by fear or by love?" So, yes please, keep the great news coming

Have a great 2023, thank you so much for your message, yes, we will be in touch for sure.

Giant hugs!

[taramag]

Thank you so much everyone for the kind words, they brought a wee tear to my eye!

I’m not going to say I’ve got everything in order or everything is going to plan with my recovery but small steps supported by the right people (including you guys) has made all the difference!

We are all GAINTS, we are strong, determined, amazing people who have been through a lot, but still we fight on!

I promise you, if you are struggling with your recovery, there will come a day where you will hug someone who helped you and thank them for their support and actually really see how far you’ve come! Looking at you Ellie_at_APP when I say this! Meeting you and the NI cafe mamas last year was amazing!

GAINT HUGS

Tara xoxo

[Jocelyn_at_APP Partner APP in reply to taramag]

Love this reply 😍😍😍

[Jenny_at_APP Partner]

Hello taramag,

This was so lovely to read, thank you for posting and sharing a message of hope for others 💜

Wishing you all the best for 2023.

Jenny xx